​pessimist by xona Lyrics

[Verse 1]
And I can't wake up today
Where I can't speak, you're in my way
I got bad thoughts all again
And I wish these things would end
I'll get everything you wish and ever wanted
I'll tell you that I love you and I'm being honest
And I have thought of you since of August
So don't look at me and leave me with no comment

[Chorus]
And you put me through a circle
Feelings are vast, it abused my mental
And I envy many people, I see you through the evil
Talking like we're meant to be but I know it's just lethal
Yeah, I fucking hate everything, but I'm obsessed
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn't guess
And I'm tired of this feeling of regret
I'm fucking up and it burns me to my chest

[Verse 2]
I don't want to hear your name
I roll my eyes and I tend to look away
I should've told you what's the matter from that day
And I don't feel okay with your name
I can feel it through my bones and it aches
I try and I try to pour the blame
And I wish you could've came my way
I find it funny that you see this as a game
[Chorus]
And you put me through a circle
Feelings are vast, it abused my mental
And I envy many people, I see you through the evil
Talking like we're meant to be but I know it's just lethal
Yeah, I fucking hate everything, but I'm obsessed
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn't guess
And I'm tired of this feeling of regret
I'm fucking up and it burns me to my chest