Trauma II by Xtlxs Lyrics
[Verse One]
I'm just tryna make a goddamn living for my momma
But I'm still caught up in all this high school drama
I don't even know what the fuck I'm gonna do, guess I'm gonna keep on going through all of the trauma
Gonna keep on going till the day that I die
Gonna smoke a big ass blunt and I'll get so high
Doesn't seem like it but I know that I'm still trying and it's more than you can say cause you still just be lying
And I'm tripping on these bitches like I'm still in highschool
Maybe I should change cause I feel like a fucking fool
Always living life knowing that it's full of rules but
All these fucking rules gone leave you dead in a pool
I'm just tryna carry on to make a fucking living for my momma but I'm still caught up in all this death trauma
And I'm losing people left and right it seems to be my life
That's why I'm scared to get older and someday have a wife
I try to fit in but it's lonely and confusing, and they say they always love me but my head senses abusing
And I'm breaking apart, right from the start
Knowing it'll never last I'll be left in the dark
We talked about the park, she know that I love Tony Stark
But she handling my heart like a megalodon shark
And my whole life seems to revolve around in the dark
So I hope that I'll be famous just so I can make my mark (yeah)
[Verse Two]
Time for a new track like it's a relay, I hop on this shit for a minute there's no delay
You act like I'm trash but I drop it like it's D-Day, I can make a diss track on you for your b-day
Always on the grind I'm ballin' like it's 2K, always writing so I am not gonna stop today
Guys starin' at me sorry though I am not gay, buy yourself dumb shit like it's from Ebay
Caught up in my mind and I feel like I'm stuck and you always creepin' on me stop you little fuck
You ask me how I'm doing just shut the fuck up, all these people hatin' on me, what you gonna run up?
I'm coming for your family I'll be coming for you bitch, acting like you tough but you got no bitch
Try and talk shit but you lookin' like a trailer hitch, you haven't dropped your balls yet? No wonder you're high pitched
Walk into the room and you better put your heads down, try to fight back and I'll put your ass back in the groun
I just kill beats man that's what I do for fun now, starin' at me upset what the hell is wrong now?
(aye, what the hell is wrong now?)
(yuh, what the hell is wrong now?)
(aye, what the hell is wrong now? you starin' at me upset what the hell is wrong now?)
[Verse Three]
Woke up in a car where am I at? Yeah it's cold I don't like that
Am I kidnapped? Pain's pounding in my head, what the fuck am I gonna be shot up?
No, I don't know now, I don't know now, my visions blurred all I see is red now
Still feelin' like I'm pumped full of lead now, I don't even know what the hell I'm gonna do now
I'm stuck in a mindset full of pain, I don't even know what's going on in my brain
Can you please step the fuck away from my lane? I don't need you anymore this is my shame
Got a problem so I walk around in the Rain, said you there for me, that's a lie now
In this world you're the butcher or you're the cattle, in this world you get loved or your brain rattles
Yeah I'm an outcast, I'm an outcast, when the world ends I am gonna outlast
Every one of you getting stuck in the past beat your ass you'll be stuck in a fuckin' cast
Yeah you dead now, no you didn't pass, bitch you a junkie, you smoke on hash
Smoke a bowl or two and my shit fuckin' cashed, all these mother fuckers dead to me cause I'm an outcast
I'm just tryna make a goddamn living for my momma
But I'm still caught up in all this high school drama
I don't even know what the fuck I'm gonna do, guess I'm gonna keep on going through all of the trauma
Gonna keep on going till the day that I die
Gonna smoke a big ass blunt and I'll get so high
Doesn't seem like it but I know that I'm still trying and it's more than you can say cause you still just be lying
[Outro]
I'm just tryna make a goddamn living for my momma
But I'm still caught up in all this high school drama
I don't even know what the fuck I'm gonna do, guess I'm gonna keep on going through all of the trauma
Gonna keep on going till the day that I die
Gonna smoke a big ass blunt and I'll get so high
Doesn't seem like it but I know that I'm still trying and it's more than you can say cause you still just be lying
I'm just tryna make a goddamn living for my momma
But I'm still caught up in all this high school drama
I don't even know what the fuck I'm gonna do, guess I'm gonna keep on going through all of the trauma
Gonna keep on going till the day that I die
Gonna smoke a big ass blunt and I'll get so high
Doesn't seem like it but I know that I'm still trying and it's more than you can say cause you still just be lying
And I'm tripping on these bitches like I'm still in highschool
Maybe I should change cause I feel like a fucking fool
Always living life knowing that it's full of rules but
All these fucking rules gone leave you dead in a pool
I'm just tryna carry on to make a fucking living for my momma but I'm still caught up in all this death trauma
And I'm losing people left and right it seems to be my life
That's why I'm scared to get older and someday have a wife
I try to fit in but it's lonely and confusing, and they say they always love me but my head senses abusing
And I'm breaking apart, right from the start
Knowing it'll never last I'll be left in the dark
We talked about the park, she know that I love Tony Stark
But she handling my heart like a megalodon shark
And my whole life seems to revolve around in the dark
So I hope that I'll be famous just so I can make my mark (yeah)
[Verse Two]
Time for a new track like it's a relay, I hop on this shit for a minute there's no delay
You act like I'm trash but I drop it like it's D-Day, I can make a diss track on you for your b-day
Always on the grind I'm ballin' like it's 2K, always writing so I am not gonna stop today
Guys starin' at me sorry though I am not gay, buy yourself dumb shit like it's from Ebay
Caught up in my mind and I feel like I'm stuck and you always creepin' on me stop you little fuck
You ask me how I'm doing just shut the fuck up, all these people hatin' on me, what you gonna run up?
I'm coming for your family I'll be coming for you bitch, acting like you tough but you got no bitch
Try and talk shit but you lookin' like a trailer hitch, you haven't dropped your balls yet? No wonder you're high pitched
Walk into the room and you better put your heads down, try to fight back and I'll put your ass back in the groun
I just kill beats man that's what I do for fun now, starin' at me upset what the hell is wrong now?
(aye, what the hell is wrong now?)
(yuh, what the hell is wrong now?)
(aye, what the hell is wrong now? you starin' at me upset what the hell is wrong now?)
[Verse Three]
Woke up in a car where am I at? Yeah it's cold I don't like that
Am I kidnapped? Pain's pounding in my head, what the fuck am I gonna be shot up?
No, I don't know now, I don't know now, my visions blurred all I see is red now
Still feelin' like I'm pumped full of lead now, I don't even know what the hell I'm gonna do now
I'm stuck in a mindset full of pain, I don't even know what's going on in my brain
Can you please step the fuck away from my lane? I don't need you anymore this is my shame
Got a problem so I walk around in the Rain, said you there for me, that's a lie now
In this world you're the butcher or you're the cattle, in this world you get loved or your brain rattles
Yeah I'm an outcast, I'm an outcast, when the world ends I am gonna outlast
Every one of you getting stuck in the past beat your ass you'll be stuck in a fuckin' cast
Yeah you dead now, no you didn't pass, bitch you a junkie, you smoke on hash
Smoke a bowl or two and my shit fuckin' cashed, all these mother fuckers dead to me cause I'm an outcast
I'm just tryna make a goddamn living for my momma
But I'm still caught up in all this high school drama
I don't even know what the fuck I'm gonna do, guess I'm gonna keep on going through all of the trauma
Gonna keep on going till the day that I die
Gonna smoke a big ass blunt and I'll get so high
Doesn't seem like it but I know that I'm still trying and it's more than you can say cause you still just be lying
[Outro]
I'm just tryna make a goddamn living for my momma
But I'm still caught up in all this high school drama
I don't even know what the fuck I'm gonna do, guess I'm gonna keep on going through all of the trauma
Gonna keep on going till the day that I die
Gonna smoke a big ass blunt and I'll get so high
Doesn't seem like it but I know that I'm still trying and it's more than you can say cause you still just be lying