Perpetual Wand by Xavierrr Lyrics
[Verse 1: Lil Weenr]
I don't love myself
And I sure as hell don’t trust myself
I just wish I were like everybody else
Full of joy, happiness and wealth
Yet I'm anxious as hell and depressed as well
I hate the skin that I'm in
I have a hard time trying to fit in
No one knows the places that I’ve been
Or the things that I've seen
Bullied at a young age, I was full of venom and rage
Teachers said "Tom it's time to turn the page"
I said, I'd rather be dead
Thеn listen to these voicеs in my head
9 years old I found out daddy wasn't mine
I sat up the whole night and fucking cried
Couldn't believe the one and only person I trusted in my life, fucking lied
Fast forward 19 years of my life
And now I'm fighting for my life
12 years, I shed a lot of blood sweat and tears
And getting into trouble with my peers
[Verse 1: Xavierrr]
Conversations run through my head
If your not with me I might just end up dead
At the scene, cops showed up
So I fled
When we have serious talks that's what I dread
Super scared of what’s ahead
Next thing we discuss
Problems with trust
I don’t know if I can do this anymore I can't adjust
You are my weakness it’s a must
I wanna be together till infinity to the star dust
Tryna get it all figured out, searchin throughly the brush
Thus doing it till dusk
I don't wanna end up in cuffs
Can't it be just us
Dark time in my life feel like I'm sitting in the back of the bus
That’s something we need to change and discuss
When I see you i blush
When will you be happy
What do I have to purchase
Baby why you clowning round it's a circus
You wanna destroy me on purpose
Talking to anyone I get nervous
I'm not normal
Im worthless
[Bridge: Lil Weenr & Xavierrr]
Can't say anything other that I love you
And I know where you are and where I will run to
[Bride 2: Xavierrr]
Don't keep it in secrecy
Sippin' on some green tea
Its just you and me
[Bridge 3: Lil Weenr & Xavierrr]
Can't say anything other that I love you (Yeah)
And I know where you are and where I will run to
YEAH!
I don't love myself
And I sure as hell don’t trust myself
I just wish I were like everybody else
Full of joy, happiness and wealth
Yet I'm anxious as hell and depressed as well
I hate the skin that I'm in
I have a hard time trying to fit in
No one knows the places that I’ve been
Or the things that I've seen
Bullied at a young age, I was full of venom and rage
Teachers said "Tom it's time to turn the page"
I said, I'd rather be dead
Thеn listen to these voicеs in my head
9 years old I found out daddy wasn't mine
I sat up the whole night and fucking cried
Couldn't believe the one and only person I trusted in my life, fucking lied
Fast forward 19 years of my life
And now I'm fighting for my life
12 years, I shed a lot of blood sweat and tears
And getting into trouble with my peers
[Verse 1: Xavierrr]
Conversations run through my head
If your not with me I might just end up dead
At the scene, cops showed up
So I fled
When we have serious talks that's what I dread
Super scared of what’s ahead
Next thing we discuss
Problems with trust
I don’t know if I can do this anymore I can't adjust
You are my weakness it’s a must
I wanna be together till infinity to the star dust
Tryna get it all figured out, searchin throughly the brush
Thus doing it till dusk
I don't wanna end up in cuffs
Can't it be just us
Dark time in my life feel like I'm sitting in the back of the bus
That’s something we need to change and discuss
When I see you i blush
When will you be happy
What do I have to purchase
Baby why you clowning round it's a circus
You wanna destroy me on purpose
Talking to anyone I get nervous
I'm not normal
Im worthless
[Bridge: Lil Weenr & Xavierrr]
Can't say anything other that I love you
And I know where you are and where I will run to
[Bride 2: Xavierrr]
Don't keep it in secrecy
Sippin' on some green tea
Its just you and me
[Bridge 3: Lil Weenr & Xavierrr]
Can't say anything other that I love you (Yeah)
And I know where you are and where I will run to
YEAH!