My Own Worst Enemy by X-el Lyrics
(Verse 1)
I was a kid with a dream
Tryna figure out how to make it in the rap scene
Tryna figure out how a teen could be so fucking nasty in the back seat I had to figure myself out
Ya, huh
My creative side
My creative mind
My creative style
Had to do something about that now! (ugh)
I was dying inside trying to fight the demon i carry around on my shoulder
Every single day that passed my heart seemed a little bit colder I needed to get going chasing my dream before I became any bit older
Cuz if i know me then the enemy in me will tare me down to a terrible degree have my face blank and disrespect any bit of family i have left its a horrible feeling when you neglect loved ones cuz your stuck in what we call de-pression
(Verse 2)
When you want it so bad but you don't know how to get it
When you want it so bad but you don't know how to grasp it
When you want it so bad but your self esteem won't let you show it, won't let you show it no it won't let you show it
That's when you gotta stand up for what you believe in you gotta stand up and follow your dreams an stop dreamin make it your reality
I found myself falling to the bottom of a pit all alone with with nobody to hold me, it was so cold down there and lonely now i'm awake and my demons can't get a hold of me they are below me but that doesn't mean they can't show me the path that I need, the path right in front of me that'll help me succeed take a hold of my life fight for what i believe in thank you for believing in me, helping my confidence grow allowed me to show me that i'm not alone that we can lead. (Ugh)
(Bridge)
The key to success is not to erase your inner demons or to express them full out!
The key to success is to find the middle line where you can work with them without them consuming you!
(Verse 3)
They had me on meds thinking something was wrong in my complicated head, I used to tell them i didn't wanna live wish i was dead then I found my soul and my will to push forward now i'm ahead of the game, told myself i'd make it no matter the pain, told myself i'd make it no matter the consequence no shame i'm just following my dream on the road to fame i'm doing anything and everything i can
Had to keep my head high even when it was low spirit was crushed and i was heart broke i just sat in my room and wrote and wrote now i'm the poet that you're listening to through your earphones
I'm a genius in disguise with my eyes up to the skies waiting for my time to arise above all the competition, this is it it's my only mission, this is what i've dreamed for and i've stopped my waiting let's go hit the ignition
I was a kid with a dream
Tryna figure out how to make it in the rap scene
Tryna figure out how a teen could be so fucking nasty in the back seat I had to figure myself out
Ya, huh
My creative side
My creative mind
My creative style
Had to do something about that now! (ugh)
I was dying inside trying to fight the demon i carry around on my shoulder
Every single day that passed my heart seemed a little bit colder I needed to get going chasing my dream before I became any bit older
Cuz if i know me then the enemy in me will tare me down to a terrible degree have my face blank and disrespect any bit of family i have left its a horrible feeling when you neglect loved ones cuz your stuck in what we call de-pression
(Verse 2)
When you want it so bad but you don't know how to get it
When you want it so bad but you don't know how to grasp it
When you want it so bad but your self esteem won't let you show it, won't let you show it no it won't let you show it
That's when you gotta stand up for what you believe in you gotta stand up and follow your dreams an stop dreamin make it your reality
I found myself falling to the bottom of a pit all alone with with nobody to hold me, it was so cold down there and lonely now i'm awake and my demons can't get a hold of me they are below me but that doesn't mean they can't show me the path that I need, the path right in front of me that'll help me succeed take a hold of my life fight for what i believe in thank you for believing in me, helping my confidence grow allowed me to show me that i'm not alone that we can lead. (Ugh)
(Bridge)
The key to success is not to erase your inner demons or to express them full out!
The key to success is to find the middle line where you can work with them without them consuming you!
(Verse 3)
They had me on meds thinking something was wrong in my complicated head, I used to tell them i didn't wanna live wish i was dead then I found my soul and my will to push forward now i'm ahead of the game, told myself i'd make it no matter the pain, told myself i'd make it no matter the consequence no shame i'm just following my dream on the road to fame i'm doing anything and everything i can
Had to keep my head high even when it was low spirit was crushed and i was heart broke i just sat in my room and wrote and wrote now i'm the poet that you're listening to through your earphones
I'm a genius in disguise with my eyes up to the skies waiting for my time to arise above all the competition, this is it it's my only mission, this is what i've dreamed for and i've stopped my waiting let's go hit the ignition