The Nine by VCTMS Lyrics

Hold my breathe until I can't breathe
Close my eyes until I can't see
Cut my circulation till I go numb
Pull the trigger back till lead fills my lungs x2

Resentment I know it all too well
A feeling that lies inside my 50 cal
I've been where you've been
Bad days and disappointment
Frustrations lead to another blood stain on the pavement

I am a fuck up, unwanted and unloved
Nothing I did was ever good enough
I'm just a lost cause, a nuisance that will never fade
Secludded myself from society, I fucking hate the human race
Born Bastard, Tragedy's in my blood
Never enough never good enough
Happiness is like a switch it comes and goes
It never sticks I hide it well so no one knows
The pain inside my head is making me sick (x2)
I've been where you've been
Bad days and disappointment
Frustrations lead to another blood stain on the pavement
Fuck

This explains all that i'm feeling
I'm better off hanging from the fucking celing
Bitterness and self loathing I can't comprehend
All these vicious thoughts tearing up my fucking head
I've hit rock bottom, i've got no where else to go
This ship has sailed, I don't care if I die alone
ELGH