Gutted ill spill by VCTMS Lyrics

This is what I get for being an artist
Spilling my guts, to keep me honest
Leading with my heart knowing I’ll destroy it
They say this is as good as it gets

It was hard to be different
I never understood what I did wrong
Always been a problem child, the fucked up kid
I guess it is what it is
But now I got this mean streak, still an outsider
Incomplete, still learning life’s dismal disease
Will it ever get better?
Cause I’ve been waiting 20 years yet I’m still bitter

It’s a dog eat dog world
And I promise it’ll break your heart
Nobody gives a shit that you tried
And I’m tired of thinking I’ll survive

This is what I get for being an artist
Spilling my guts, to keep me honest
Leading with my heart knowing I’ll destroy it
This is as good as it gets? Honestly
Life’s still a cold bitch

Life’s still a cold bitch