Lets Have A Chat by TylerNess Lyrics
Look, I ain't gonna do any singing or rapping or whatever the fuck
I'm just gonna have a chat, as it says in the title of the song
So let's get into some things I wanna talk about, yeah?
Love was probably what started off my depression
Which lead to anxiety and other things like that
But, well, my first relationship was alright
I decided to end it because it felt like I was too young to deal with that kinda shit
Yeah, I kinda regret that, I do miss them sometimes
But it probably would've ended anyway so I got that outta the way, I guess
Then when I got into secondary school, y'know, I started to meet new people, make new friends
But there was this one person, now, they were special
They were my first crush I guess
It was a strange feeling but, it was so good at the same time
We became very good friends actually
Then one time I had one of my depression sessions and I talked about it with them
And they told me, "Tyler, please"
"I love you"
And... that was probably one of the best moments of my life
I mean, who doesn't want their crush to tell them they love you, right?
That's what everyone wants, what I wanted anyway
But they meant as a friend
Now, young little me didn't realise that because I never had that from just a friend before
So it made me a little sad to hear that but, hey, what ya gonna do?
I and that person don't talk that much anymore
I miss them
After that, I had a couple new crushes
But they weren't nearly as big as the last so I wasn't that devastated
I think I liked them because they were very touchy
And I sure do love affection
I mean, who doesn't?
They hugged me, put their arms around me, y'know
But it wasn't like I wanted to be with them, but I probably would still go with them if I had the chance
Anyway, the person that crushed me emotionally
Here we fucking go
They seemed, almost perfect
They understood me
They were there for me
They laid their head on my shoulder
They hung out with me when no one else would
Okay, maybe not perfect, but, good enough for me
They also said they loved me but it was just randomly
We were just walking out of a building and they said "I love you"
And I said "I love you too"
They went "Yay"
They had this little cute thing were they would go 'yay'
I dunno, I just found it to be one of the small things I liked about them
They meant 'friend love' by the way, which I was actually kind of okay with
We always used to send each other hearts on Instagram
It made me feel special for once, it made me feel loved, finally
Then they said they knew something about me that I didn't tell them
So I did what any normal person would do, I freaked out
I asked them what it was and they said they were joking
I told them, "Jesus Christ, you scared the fuck outta me"
They said, "What, you got something to hide from me?"
I said, "It doesn't matter"
They said, "Come on, you can tell me"
I said, "I don't know"
They said, "If I guess it, will you tell me?"
And when they said that I think I wanted them to know about me so I said "Fine"
Then they said, "You're ***?"
"Dammit"
"And you like me?"
"Yeah"
HOW THE FUCK!?
anyway
"Will this change anything between us?"
"No, don't worry, I've guessed for a while"
I learned that they were lying
Things changed for a couple weeks, maybe a few
But they turned back
It turned back to the way it was
It was good
While it lasted
Then a year later it's almost like I don't exist to them
I mean, what did I do?
I don't...
I don't get it
Why do they always leave!?
I'm sorry for not being good enough
I'm sorry for not being there enough
I'm sorry that I exist
My existence seems unnecessary
I just want someone to love me
And not turn out to be fake
Nice chat...
I'm just gonna have a chat, as it says in the title of the song
So let's get into some things I wanna talk about, yeah?
Love was probably what started off my depression
Which lead to anxiety and other things like that
But, well, my first relationship was alright
I decided to end it because it felt like I was too young to deal with that kinda shit
Yeah, I kinda regret that, I do miss them sometimes
But it probably would've ended anyway so I got that outta the way, I guess
Then when I got into secondary school, y'know, I started to meet new people, make new friends
But there was this one person, now, they were special
They were my first crush I guess
It was a strange feeling but, it was so good at the same time
We became very good friends actually
Then one time I had one of my depression sessions and I talked about it with them
And they told me, "Tyler, please"
"I love you"
And... that was probably one of the best moments of my life
I mean, who doesn't want their crush to tell them they love you, right?
That's what everyone wants, what I wanted anyway
But they meant as a friend
Now, young little me didn't realise that because I never had that from just a friend before
So it made me a little sad to hear that but, hey, what ya gonna do?
I and that person don't talk that much anymore
I miss them
After that, I had a couple new crushes
But they weren't nearly as big as the last so I wasn't that devastated
I think I liked them because they were very touchy
And I sure do love affection
I mean, who doesn't?
They hugged me, put their arms around me, y'know
But it wasn't like I wanted to be with them, but I probably would still go with them if I had the chance
Anyway, the person that crushed me emotionally
Here we fucking go
They seemed, almost perfect
They understood me
They were there for me
They laid their head on my shoulder
They hung out with me when no one else would
Okay, maybe not perfect, but, good enough for me
They also said they loved me but it was just randomly
We were just walking out of a building and they said "I love you"
And I said "I love you too"
They went "Yay"
They had this little cute thing were they would go 'yay'
I dunno, I just found it to be one of the small things I liked about them
They meant 'friend love' by the way, which I was actually kind of okay with
We always used to send each other hearts on Instagram
It made me feel special for once, it made me feel loved, finally
Then they said they knew something about me that I didn't tell them
So I did what any normal person would do, I freaked out
I asked them what it was and they said they were joking
I told them, "Jesus Christ, you scared the fuck outta me"
They said, "What, you got something to hide from me?"
I said, "It doesn't matter"
They said, "Come on, you can tell me"
I said, "I don't know"
They said, "If I guess it, will you tell me?"
And when they said that I think I wanted them to know about me so I said "Fine"
Then they said, "You're ***?"
"Dammit"
"And you like me?"
"Yeah"
HOW THE FUCK!?
anyway
"Will this change anything between us?"
"No, don't worry, I've guessed for a while"
I learned that they were lying
Things changed for a couple weeks, maybe a few
But they turned back
It turned back to the way it was
It was good
While it lasted
Then a year later it's almost like I don't exist to them
I mean, what did I do?
I don't...
I don't get it
Why do they always leave!?
I'm sorry for not being good enough
I'm sorry for not being there enough
I'm sorry that I exist
My existence seems unnecessary
I just want someone to love me
And not turn out to be fake
Nice chat...