Monolith by Twin Pumpkin Lyrics

I fancied I could dissolve by the sunset
Tried to plead to God but she just said: No
I wish that I could feel more like a human
But a world of a ghost is so closed and so cold

I got a toll on my mind
Everyone thinks that I'm fine
Vicious cycles of monolith eyes
Sewed up my shame with moss
Sold my soul for some body parts

I got no one but myself to blame
So get out, get out, get out of my head

If freedom is the last thing then blood is everlasting
But it's hard to let you go
Been searching for a truth clear, I'm running on a loop here
I will never let you go

You better take me down before I
You better take me down before I
If I had um centavo for everytime I fucking cried in the closet
Fighting with my conscious
I'd be richer than the man who invented Jesus Christ, Beelzebub, win the lotto
I'm breaking, I'll break it, I'm breaking, I'll break it, I'll break it
And then I can't take it anymore

Fate, I got only myself to blame
Faith, I got only myself to blame

If freedom is the last thing then blood is everlasting
But it's hard to let you go
Been searching for a truth clear, I'm running on a loop here
I will never let you go
The season's nearly through here, don't matter what I'll lose no
I will never let this go

I only got myself to blame
I only got myself

If freedom is the last thing then blood is everlasting
But it's hard to let you go
Been searching for a truth clear, I'm running on a loop here
I will never let you go
The season's nearly through here, don't matter what I'll lose no
I will never let this go
I only got myself to blame
I only got myself