Afterthought by Trei Edwvrd Lyrics
I've reached the point where I don't regret my decisions
I really don't give a fuck about how y'all feeling
I'm at the point where I smile after I down a whole bottom
And them white pills that you gave me begin to kick in
My heart is scared
I can't believe what I've seen
But I won't cry
Won't even let out a scream
I'll call my goons up
I gotta get my mood up
Even though I am boo'ed up
I don't know what love mean
I ain't never been the same since my nana diеd
It ain't the same when I gotta talk to hеr through the sky
It's become natural telling my fam I'm good when I'm lying straight through my teeth
They wanna help but I don't think they could
This letter to the grave is everything I have to say
I'm truly sorry that I couldn't say it to your face
I hope you know that I cherish all of our memories
And K.O. you helped mold me into who I wanna be
Shoutout to Mac Miller, MGK, Slim Shady
No father figure
So y'alls music was the thing that raised me
Some people hear that bar and look at me as if I'm crazy
I split subliminals
Your lost face wouldn't really faze me
Thoughts from a balcony
Wonder what it's like going down
Not afraid of the aftermath of being 6IX feet down
General Admission ahead
Am I going up or down?
Really don't matter if it means I can escape the sound
Being told I'm a fuck up and that I don't belongs
The story of my life but somehow I remain to stay strong
Cut ties with those that brought nothing but negativity
Cut ties with those that could never come match my energy
Broke bread with those that had other mouths than themselves to feed
I'll stay 10 toes for the southisde
They'll take a life for me
Keep talking to my nana
Hoping that my words get through
Take care of ma dukes
To make up for what she has been through
This was the end but now I'm starting to write a new story
All praise to God because you know he deserves all the glory
Helped me escape my past
Now I am free from purgatory
I'm finally free now I'm on my way to new territory
I really don't give a fuck about how y'all feeling
I'm at the point where I smile after I down a whole bottom
And them white pills that you gave me begin to kick in
My heart is scared
I can't believe what I've seen
But I won't cry
Won't even let out a scream
I'll call my goons up
I gotta get my mood up
Even though I am boo'ed up
I don't know what love mean
I ain't never been the same since my nana diеd
It ain't the same when I gotta talk to hеr through the sky
It's become natural telling my fam I'm good when I'm lying straight through my teeth
They wanna help but I don't think they could
This letter to the grave is everything I have to say
I'm truly sorry that I couldn't say it to your face
I hope you know that I cherish all of our memories
And K.O. you helped mold me into who I wanna be
Shoutout to Mac Miller, MGK, Slim Shady
No father figure
So y'alls music was the thing that raised me
Some people hear that bar and look at me as if I'm crazy
I split subliminals
Your lost face wouldn't really faze me
Thoughts from a balcony
Wonder what it's like going down
Not afraid of the aftermath of being 6IX feet down
General Admission ahead
Am I going up or down?
Really don't matter if it means I can escape the sound
Being told I'm a fuck up and that I don't belongs
The story of my life but somehow I remain to stay strong
Cut ties with those that brought nothing but negativity
Cut ties with those that could never come match my energy
Broke bread with those that had other mouths than themselves to feed
I'll stay 10 toes for the southisde
They'll take a life for me
Keep talking to my nana
Hoping that my words get through
Take care of ma dukes
To make up for what she has been through
This was the end but now I'm starting to write a new story
All praise to God because you know he deserves all the glory
Helped me escape my past
Now I am free from purgatory
I'm finally free now I'm on my way to new territory