Mental Hiatus by Torn Lyrics
[Verse]
Life is much longer when you have depression
Anxiety is trying me, dying in discretion, my mind's election
Rock bottom, sleep clock's bugging
Spliffs and acetaminophen temporarily disappear problems
So I'm abusing substances, fuck being sober
When I'm on the mic I find solace, skull's hollow
Been wanting to die since before it was cool
Suicidal thoughts, as a kid I almost kill myself over flu
Hypothalamus malfunctioning, not enough serotonin
It's been countless times that for drugs I've emptied my wallet
If I didn't gave a fuck about you I'd be dead already
But you want me here so getting high's necessary
I want the pain to end, and if I can't leave for that purpose
I'm getting my brain numb in a self induced comma
What were my parents thinking, they should've used protection
Their creation is now prepared for damnation
And God, fuck you for blind folding my loved ones
Death is the exit, time extended by the 20 pills that I gobbled
I will never forgive you for this shitty visit
All viable ways include death, fuck your optimism
Existence equals agony
We should all kill ourselves at the same time to avoid further tragedies
This is a war and our lives are just casualties
Born to suffer, die for my inner peace or exist for insanity
[Refrain]
I need some air, mental hiatus
The truth hides and lies are contagious
Life is much longer when you have depression
Anxiety is trying me, dying in discretion, my mind's election
Rock bottom, sleep clock's bugging
Spliffs and acetaminophen temporarily disappear problems
So I'm abusing substances, fuck being sober
When I'm on the mic I find solace, skull's hollow
Been wanting to die since before it was cool
Suicidal thoughts, as a kid I almost kill myself over flu
Hypothalamus malfunctioning, not enough serotonin
It's been countless times that for drugs I've emptied my wallet
If I didn't gave a fuck about you I'd be dead already
But you want me here so getting high's necessary
I want the pain to end, and if I can't leave for that purpose
I'm getting my brain numb in a self induced comma
What were my parents thinking, they should've used protection
Their creation is now prepared for damnation
And God, fuck you for blind folding my loved ones
Death is the exit, time extended by the 20 pills that I gobbled
I will never forgive you for this shitty visit
All viable ways include death, fuck your optimism
Existence equals agony
We should all kill ourselves at the same time to avoid further tragedies
This is a war and our lives are just casualties
Born to suffer, die for my inner peace or exist for insanity
[Refrain]
I need some air, mental hiatus
The truth hides and lies are contagious