Pointless Song by Toothpick Tommy Lyrics

I'm going to the store get myself a pack of smokes
I'm goin back home and maybe crack a couple jokes
I'm makin people laugh, but I don't wanna laugh
Cause I'm way too busy always doin math

I'm not counting cash, I'm counting lives
I'm counting all days that I've survived
Trying to be grateful and feel mesmerized
But I'm still miserable which is no surprise

I wanna feel a vibe, I wanna feel alive
I wanna relive looking in your eyes
And seeing stars and heaven and the galaxies
Knowing for a brief moment you were a part of me

This is not a love song, this is not a fun song
This is not a thug song, this is not a drug song
This is just random pointless song instead
Just writing whatever feelings decide to creep into my head

Knowing they exist for whatever purpose
I might never know when I'm on this surface
The mysteries of the universe plague my mental
I constantly fail to realize my potential
Not just with rapping, but just in life
I often ponder why I only come out at night
The reason why I'm rapping this emotionless
Is 'cause I am, and I'm really just hoping its

The weather playing with my mood,I'm really missing food
I miss my body feelin' like it's suppose to
I'm writing this at 5 A.M. 'cause I'm afraid to sleep
My body is rotting away cause I'm afraid to eat

Combine sleep deprivation with malnourishment
You'll get a whole new level of worthlessness
Not to mention the amount of discouragement
Cause after 2 years you start to think it's permanent

I'm tired of O.C.D. and I can't wait for the day
The word "Alive" is something fucking good to say
I'm just tired of being in all this damn pain
I'm sorry, I don't like to complain

So if you're listening, I have something nice to say
I truly hope you have a wonderfully amazing day
I truly hope that somehow you find your way
And I hope you find a smile on your face

Doesn't matter who you are, know I fuckin' love you
And if you were here, I'd love to fuckin' hug you