Nadir by Timmy Probably Lyrics

[1st Verse]

My hope hit the pavement like criminal shoes
The only sensation positioned to lose
Born in the bane and I'm living obtuse
The walls, will say I have minimal use
Living is taxing, bills every night
Starting to think I'm not built for the light
Pessimistic cause I kill to be right
A hero to die, a villain to fight

Time is a joke when you're swallowed by dread
Destined to choke if I follow my head
Wasted potential I'll wallow in debt
Maybe I'll fake some bravado instead
Feeling I'm gonna get slammed by the sky
Damned if I submit and damned if I try
Wings have been clipped I'm too damaged to fly
Pigment is shifting I'm tanning with lies

Light? A thing of the past
My will in a sling or a cast
Its beaten and battered
Cling to the brink of a crash
Blink
I think of my casket
King of the rash
Not worth a fuck or a shit or a damn
Don't deserve fun so my id in the can
My time feeling borrowed like kid is to cash
How long can I act that it isn't that bad?

[2nd Verse]
What in the fuck am I tryna gain?
Not feeling able my mind is Cain
Brain is all mush cause my mind is strained
Too cold inside if I lie in flames
Let me rot I'm not the kind to save
Shit I don't know when the bias came
Self destructive like I fight my name
My body should just high five a train

Ponder if life has some benefits that
Don't run their course in ten seconds flat
Tell me be patient you're forgetting that
Waiting for shit to get better is wack
Save your persuasion
Its vain and frustrating
No way I'll be baited
State is so vacant
My pain is inflated
Hatred enabled
My brain got no cable like