CONUNDRUM by Tiad Hilm Lyrics
[Intro]
Tell me what you gon' do when the sky turns black
Tell me what you gon’ do when the sun don't shine
Tell me what you gon' do when you can’t go back
To the moment when you see the stars intertwined
[Verse 1]
But the lights are dim as your hands are shaking
While you're holding a glass filled with Absinthe
'Cause you think you're absent when your friends needed help
And you feel so distant 'cause you were never there
Still you wanted to leave, 'causе you think you're toxic
Also you seemed manic, verging on psychotic
Thеn you felt so panic, 'cause the world’s chaotic
It’s very ironic, you turned into a narcotic
I'd pray under the mistletoe in this status quo
To overthrow the overflowing of my demons
I wish I’m a Morgan then I go free man
But this beacon is beamin', I'm beaten and bleedin'
[Hook]
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
[Verse 2]
Can anyone tell me where to find solitude
’Cause suffering multitude losses make my mind screwed
Can anyone, please, tell me where to find peace
When the pieces are puzzled, I'm scared to be deceased
I crave food for my thoughts, a feast for my soul
So I won't tie a noose knot until my eyes roll
Yes I've been ig'nant, these thoughts are malignant
Behind all forms of stigma, causing to feel indignant
Yet the vision of wanting to die is very resilient
Ain't that coherent to know that millions of people be thinking the same thing
They barking the wrong tree, telling the same deceit
Trusting the wrong soul and killing the same shit (Well, you know what I mean?)
Well, the question still remains and I'm here to make amends
Am I taking Jesus' word if I put the Bible on my hands?
Even when I'm a heathen, my existential dread
Is something that I need to overcome before I'm dead
And the tears that have been shed still lives on in every shred
Now my eyes are seeing red, dead redemption on myself
My heaven is the present, so maybe this is it
Jumping off the window to make me believe I exist
[Hook]
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Tell me what you gon' do when the sky turns black
Tell me what you gon’ do when the sun don't shine
Tell me what you gon' do when you can’t go back
To the moment when you see the stars intertwined
[Verse 1]
But the lights are dim as your hands are shaking
While you're holding a glass filled with Absinthe
'Cause you think you're absent when your friends needed help
And you feel so distant 'cause you were never there
Still you wanted to leave, 'causе you think you're toxic
Also you seemed manic, verging on psychotic
Thеn you felt so panic, 'cause the world’s chaotic
It’s very ironic, you turned into a narcotic
I'd pray under the mistletoe in this status quo
To overthrow the overflowing of my demons
I wish I’m a Morgan then I go free man
But this beacon is beamin', I'm beaten and bleedin'
[Hook]
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
[Verse 2]
Can anyone tell me where to find solitude
’Cause suffering multitude losses make my mind screwed
Can anyone, please, tell me where to find peace
When the pieces are puzzled, I'm scared to be deceased
I crave food for my thoughts, a feast for my soul
So I won't tie a noose knot until my eyes roll
Yes I've been ig'nant, these thoughts are malignant
Behind all forms of stigma, causing to feel indignant
Yet the vision of wanting to die is very resilient
Ain't that coherent to know that millions of people be thinking the same thing
They barking the wrong tree, telling the same deceit
Trusting the wrong soul and killing the same shit (Well, you know what I mean?)
Well, the question still remains and I'm here to make amends
Am I taking Jesus' word if I put the Bible on my hands?
Even when I'm a heathen, my existential dread
Is something that I need to overcome before I'm dead
And the tears that have been shed still lives on in every shred
Now my eyes are seeing red, dead redemption on myself
My heaven is the present, so maybe this is it
Jumping off the window to make me believe I exist
[Hook]
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away?
Far away