In The Cool October Air by Threadleaf Lyrics

You can find it in the footnotes
The explanation, the things that I’ve been saying all along
Why I feel worn out
I guess I barely had the drive to write it down

Put more effort into excuses
When it would be easier to just do this

And I’m thinking that
I’m prepared
To leave this all up to chance
It’s all up in the air
I should’ve had this planned
Well I hope I will, I hope I will

It scares me half to death
When I don’t know what I’m looking at
Looking into the horizon out where my vision ends

Why is this such a surprise to me
Did I never think about what I should bе doing
I guess it’ll turn out the way it always does
And I’ll bе fine I’ll be fine
And they’re telling me it’s
All my call
So I’m feeling like it’s all my fault
And I’m thinking that I’m prepared
To be unprepared