PTSD by Thomas Hill Lyrics
Bang
My body was a mid air somersault
Time stopped almost seemed to collapse in on itself
Earth became sky
Clouds became ground
The day that the bomb blew my whole world was turned on my head
The doctor says that the explosion pushed me over the edge
Post traumatic stress stretched these nerves thin and
There’s a war being waged in my mind
Sometimes it feels like there’s nothing up here but dirt and destruction
Bullets clumping thunderous against my cranium
Guns win the battle but the dead win the war
They sit in my cerebrum 60 somethin soldiers
Who were forced to face fear at the nose of my gun
Bang
My memory is a minefield
Bang
My memory is a minefield
Bang
It was all for my country
Im a man with a star spangled strangled mind
So don’t mind me walking out of the bar at ten thirty a.m.
I’m a hero
Bang
Turned to heroin
Turned to liquor
Turned to my wife and kids with nuclear knuckles and the bomb of a backhand
Bang
I can’t seem to escape these goddamn memories they lurk
Like the smell of steel and flesh introduced to fire
Bang
I was fired from my desk job for being more weapon than worker
My fridge looks like an unattended obligation
My kids look like the American Dream night terror
It's hard to hold onto your sanity when all
The sand you’ve seen is caked with blood
That you make visible
Bang
The army will make a machine out of you
Send you to be all shotgun glory
then the human right up out of you
And make you more man of steel than man of strength
Bang
Im sorry
My mind is rotting it's as purple as my heart
Honorable discharge turned into discharge
Into my tab in a matter of time
bang
Time stopped
Bang
Time stopped
Bang
Time stopped almost seemed to collapse in on itself
The doctor says that i got post traumatic stress disorder
So my brain is taking orders that no one is giving
I was called back in 2005
My mind never left its post
My body was a mid air somersault
Time stopped almost seemed to collapse in on itself
Earth became sky
Clouds became ground
The day that the bomb blew my whole world was turned on my head
The doctor says that the explosion pushed me over the edge
Post traumatic stress stretched these nerves thin and
There’s a war being waged in my mind
Sometimes it feels like there’s nothing up here but dirt and destruction
Bullets clumping thunderous against my cranium
Guns win the battle but the dead win the war
They sit in my cerebrum 60 somethin soldiers
Who were forced to face fear at the nose of my gun
Bang
My memory is a minefield
Bang
My memory is a minefield
Bang
It was all for my country
Im a man with a star spangled strangled mind
So don’t mind me walking out of the bar at ten thirty a.m.
I’m a hero
Bang
Turned to heroin
Turned to liquor
Turned to my wife and kids with nuclear knuckles and the bomb of a backhand
Bang
I can’t seem to escape these goddamn memories they lurk
Like the smell of steel and flesh introduced to fire
Bang
I was fired from my desk job for being more weapon than worker
My fridge looks like an unattended obligation
My kids look like the American Dream night terror
It's hard to hold onto your sanity when all
The sand you’ve seen is caked with blood
That you make visible
Bang
The army will make a machine out of you
Send you to be all shotgun glory
then the human right up out of you
And make you more man of steel than man of strength
Bang
Im sorry
My mind is rotting it's as purple as my heart
Honorable discharge turned into discharge
Into my tab in a matter of time
bang
Time stopped
Bang
Time stopped
Bang
Time stopped almost seemed to collapse in on itself
The doctor says that i got post traumatic stress disorder
So my brain is taking orders that no one is giving
I was called back in 2005
My mind never left its post