Quarter Century Slumber by This is He Lyrics

If I'm not worrying
Then who's disturbing
My peace of mind
Until the end of time

If my anxiety
Doesn't get the best of me
How will I ever find
My way past everything I left behind

If I don't go back into my memory
My history is bound to get the best of my future recovery

Am I squandering all my success
Allowing every tiny mishap to become something I obsess

Over analyze my inability
To draw the line between comfort and instability

I'm too far gone now, I can't turn back again
I'm much older than I look and feel
Having difficulty determining what is real
Now, I'm falling headfirst into fear
Squinting harder without any effect on making myself clear
It's transparent to everyone I meet
How hard I try to be reckless yet discreet

Moving on now with some clarity
It's 3 a.m. and I'm aware of my own insecurity
But, I will manage to assess the damage
Determine it's not worthy of the energy
I'll convince myself so cleverly

I am okay, I promise I'm just fine
If there's any separation between my pain and I
I swear to god, I've crossed the line
Don't panic, I swear I'll manage
I've made it 25 years long without anyone realizing anything was wrong
Am I right?