Ive Given Up by The Sharp Lyrics

I said I wasn’t going to think about it again… (echo)

Verse 1:

And here I am thinking about it again
The letter ready to be sent
They find me on the floor dead
I bled from the knife in my hand
They look at the note and it says
Dear friends and family
I seemed to go ‘bout things casually
Really it was angrily
From sixth grade till at the academy
I prayed god show himself so i knew he was real
Get me out of this deal
I feel like the third wheel all the time
Get me out of this
All the disses were against me
I just can’t handle it anymore

(hook):
Yeah I’m sorry I’ve given up
At the beginning you wind up
But I can’t handle going on especially after the break up


Verse 2:

Sixth grade was anger issues
Almost hurt my mom my feelings have a bruise
Finger marks on her arm
My dad gets into hunting and gets a firearm
I want to run away they don’t care about me
Before I flee i call the hotline
The guy reassures me
My dad called me a bitch


(hook):

Yeah I’m sorry I’ve given up
At the beginning you wind up
But I can’t handle going on especially after the break up


Verse 3:
Seventh grade i was done
Away from life is where i wanted to run
I found the knife my grandpa got from world war 2
I had the idea but couldn’t follow through
Eighth grade I thought about it again
In pain is where I’ve been
And they don’t know
I can’t take this no mo’e


(hook):

Yeah I’m sorry I’ve given up
At the beginning you wind up
But I can’t handle going on especially after the break up

Verse 4:

I checked myself into the hospital
School makes me feel little
They belittle my talent like i have none
The hospital decided I don’t need to be there
Life ain’t fair
I have to go back to hell school
Other girls rule while i look like a fool
A tool for their popularity
A stool for them sit up high

(hook):

Yeah I’m sorry I’ve given up
At the beginning you wind up
But I can’t handle going on especially after the break up


Verse 5:

Graduation i’m never going to see them again
I’d thank god but i don’t believe, is that a sin?
I’m going to a catholic school
Being on twitter during prayer is against the rules
I lost my faith when god didn’t answer my call
Now i got it all
I got friends
But not being suicidal ended when homework and winter came
Things aren’t the same
Different vibe not as bad
But friends i no longer have, i had they called me sharp
I was never meant to have friends
And i broke up with my boyfriend
He won’t take me back
I make out with his friend
We’re friends with benefits but after he’s a stranger
He forgets i’m in danger of depression
As a freshman i thought i had it made
Dead poets society neil is who i identify with
He says he gets it, that’s a myth
He makes fun of mental health
The loneliness starts and i’m ready for life to end


(hook):

Yeah I’m sorry I’ve given up
At the beginning you wind up
But I can’t handle going on especially after the break up


Verse 6:

I write the note and make the playlist
I hope i’ll be missed
I wait to go to tampa to see my bro
I feel low i can’t wait to do it
I feel like shit
I look up the best suicide methods
I don’t like where i’m headed
But it’s too late to call the hotline
The loneliness and no comfort is mine
I always planned on using a knife to take my life
But my dad’s gun will be more effective
With what i use i’ll be selective
My grandpa’s knife was lost but there’s a steak knife downstairs
I have to finish my note to say the heirs of my stuff
The gun’s locked up tight


(hook):

Yeah I’m sorry I’ve given up
At the beginning you wind up
But I can’t handle going on especially after the break up


Verse 7:

The possibility’s always in my head
But i fled by lying in bed and shutting down
I wake up and forget about it
I admit that i’ll never stop thinking about it
Something i might commit
I hope i can help people who want to quit life

There are happy moments, we live for those