Confused by The Red Son Lyrics

[Intro]
They say honesty is the best policy
But no ever really follows through
So this time I will

[Verse 1]
This year hit me hard
And knocked me facedown on the ground
I finally got up and I found that life looks so much different now
Darkness seems so much more common to me
And I no longer see the hope I used to speak of
And it's hard to speak of love
When you feel like it's left the room

[Chorus]
And I know you're there
But I don't wanna face you
You say you care
And that's why I'm confused

[Verse 2]
From your view this all must look so different
There must be something I missed
Cause from my point of view my faith is nonexistent
And I'm unsure what to say anymore
Cause I still believe that you're there
And yet I lie here on the floor
Devoid of all hope
[Chorus]
And I know you're there
But I don't wanna face you
You say you care
And that's why I'm confused

[Bridge]
Someone please tell me why
I honestly can't find a purpose for this
I've been searching frantically
But there's nothing there
God please show me
What your plan is
Cause I can't see it
I don't see it

[Outro]
And you're still there
And it's still so hard to face you
I know you care
And yet I'm still confused