Introvert comes alive by The Moth (Poet) Lyrics

Is it writer's block or am I just not good
I'm hoping that at 18 I can tell people 'bout my 'hood'
I'm hoping that my grades improve like they should
hoping that my family will forever stay good

I ask myself about myself and who I really want to be
Same response every year
Myself doesn't want to answer me
Myself doesn't want to get involved in this charade we call life
Cause myself says he doesn't want to end up without a wife
And again he doesn't want to end up in a grave

I've been called a lot of things since I was born
My family never noticed whenever this young boy felt torn
I knew how to hide, from that mental paparazzi
Like my pain was a jew hiding from then Nazi

I used to scream at night, rejecting all the tears
Hoping that a 'loved' one will maybe someday hear...
The world changed its mind about ending this year
Cause it knew all I want is to kick-start my career
Goodnight