Nightmare Pt. 1 by The Infested Lyrics

Feelings bottled up, messed my head up
Problems unaddressed, fucked my mind up
Feeling so alone, no one to talk to
Embarrassment and shame, I'd left it too long
Anxious and scared, how did I get this way?
This is not me, I shouldn't be this way
My tongue's tied up, can't get my words out
Humiliation, my worst nightmare

My face blushing red, I cannot stop it
My heart's pounding, I can't control it
My words make no sense and you're all laughing
I'm dripping with sweat, I've barely started
My mind has shut down and I'm all confused
Simplest requests my brain will not compute
I'm self-conscious that you're all watching
I'm paranoid that you're all listening

Suppressed thoughts will soon see the light
They torture you so late at night
They control the way you interact
Let it out whilst you still can
I did this to myself, no one else to blame
Thirteen years of torture, life pissed down the drain
Thoughts buried deep down, it'll all go away
Alcohol won't keep these thoughts at bay
Lying awake at night and I feel fuckin' sick
Just gimme one more try, I'll start again a fresh
Choices that I made, when I was a kid
Have left my head in pieces, I've had enough of it

I don't want the focus on me
I'm scared of what you'll think and see
Nightmares and dreams I'm losing teeth
I just wanna hide away from you