Opening Up 850 Words by The Act (Rapper) Lyrics
[Intro: Call Me - Shinedown]
Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that's the way I should go
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
Left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I'd be able to say
I merely visit on the weekend
I lost my whole life and a dear friend
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way
[Verse 1: The Act]
I'm just another dude
With family issues
And a bad attitude
I'm stumbling right through
Just about to amount to
The only thing my father taught me how to
Kick back with a six pack of brews
Make that two
Drink away my problems
While my son's and daughter's
Blood bonds are rottin'
Disintegrating to dust
Dryer than that vodka
Drain that bottle to the bottom
Cause ya troubles don't mean shit
Cause I am in my drunken bliss
Age 3, 4, 5, 6
To sixteen
A sinking vessel
Is about to be a sunken ship
Yeah, I'm the Titanic
But that alcoholic problem is my iceberg, no ice pick
And I'm losing my vice grip
About to slip
Thanks for givin' me an image
Of who I don't wanna be
Some kind of figurine to picture
Captain Vicodin
Yeah, loved my action figures
Hapless heroes
Probably cause I lacked it, zero
[Hook: Call Me - Shinedown]
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way
[Bridge: The Act]
That's what I was exposed to
Is that what I'm gonna be?
What I'm gonna grow to, go do?
What am I supposed to do?
[Verse 2: The Act]
I can see it happening
I fought the good fight
I'm no Rocky, gotta be Ali
Now I see the spots and light
Like a deer, just stare, in fright
But I'm about to fall over
Down a flight of stairs
Every day that I grow older
These thousand pound boulders
Strapped to my shoulders
To much to keep a hold of
And it's crushing the last bit
Of these good things
I keep holed up
Deep enough
To be untouched
I've got the rot, its spreadin' no stop
Locomotive, full speed ahead
Not a moment of slow motion
To catch my breath
As that kid is swallowed whole
Into the ocean
I'm at my coldest depth, emotionless
So distant and scopeless
See no horizon, and I'm ropeless
No guidance, just ghost heads
Talkin' at me
'Piece of shit. Look at you
You're worthless
Stay in and hang in the attic, fuck it, follow the family path set
Become the addict, shoot up and stop giving a fuck
What's stopping you now?
Huh?"
I'm tryin' to figure it out!
[Hook: Call Me - Shinedown]
I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time
[Verse 3: The Act]
Turn the music real loud
And drown out the voices
Of disjointed, disembodied, pointless
Apparitions beggin' for me to listen again
Except they're different now
The faces have changed
To caricatures of my friends
The few that I have left
But it's too late
Nothing they say makes sense
Cause I've got an electric fence
Yeah, that's a good defence
You go ahead, ignore the world
Spiral out of control
Once a chemical change occurs
That's it. You're burned
Burned out
Can't un-boil
So much potential
Robbed. Nonsensical
Toil and trouble
Dabble with the witch's spell
No, no fairy tale
I mean the chemists brew
Its destined
To come true
What a fool to try to
Undue these
Scars and blemishes
Cause they add up, when you're fightin' in the trenches
Gonna die and be buried here
An open grave, no casket
A happy endin'?
No. Don't ask it
Just a mass death pit
Write until my fingers bleed
And fingernails split
And the ink runs dry
Then pen it in blood
Mixed with tears I cried
What do I need?
A fuckin' miracle
Just to heal
Stuck spinning
On that wheel of misfortune
Fuck it, I'm grinning
Madness is winning
Congratulations
I am actually fuckin' breakin
Thought I was unbreakable
Unshakable, no, just stupid
The same as anybody else
Just stubborn and clueless
No wonder I can't love
I have a callused fist sized tumor
Just barely pumpin' enough of
My stupid humour
To keep me movin'
But when you give up
Your body catches on to it
So I can pass easily
Glad I could put it on an easle
The needle needs me, needlessly
Ha, yeah, I'm the goofy funny guy
Because I'm hidin' the darkness
I keep locked inside
Pandora's box
I unlocked it
Run run running
Never far enough to be out of sight
So to the people I've hurt, you wonder why?
I'm just another bad guy
That's what happens when you're living in a lie
So accustomed and attuned
And it nearly became a fact
Close to the truth
But I am just an actor
Permanently living in The Act
[Hook/Bridge: Call Me - Shinedown]
I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be
You know I've led my life like a gypsy
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried
I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be
You know I've led my life like a gypsy
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried
[Verse 5: The Act]
Just another dude
With family issues
And a bad attitude
Stumbling right through
Just about to amount to
The only thing my father taught me how to
Kick back with a six pack of brews
Make that two
Drink away my problems
My father's not the only one that's got 'em
His mother is off her rocker
His step father is somethin' that's always bothered him
My mother hit rock bottom
But she rose up found God and blossomed
Maybe I can do that too
Takes these woes and box 'em up
I've seen flowers sprout up from the ground
Beneath the concrete, between the cracks
Left from trampling feet
Proof that life refuses to be beat
Breakin' barriers just to taste the sunlight
I am just another dude
With family issues
And a positive attitude
Walking right through
About to amount to
What I learned from all those people around me
Something different
Something new
Because I'm keepin' my head up
So I can get the best view
Now that got this off of my chest
It's time to bury it underneath
In a rose petal grave
Not forgotten, but saved
Because I remember the pain
But never have to feel it again
Never again
Wrap me in a bolt of lightning
Send me on my way still smiling
Maybe that's the way I should go
Straight into the mouth of the unknown
Left the spare key on the table
Never really thought I'd be able to say
I merely visit on the weekend
I lost my whole life and a dear friend
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way
[Verse 1: The Act]
I'm just another dude
With family issues
And a bad attitude
I'm stumbling right through
Just about to amount to
The only thing my father taught me how to
Kick back with a six pack of brews
Make that two
Drink away my problems
While my son's and daughter's
Blood bonds are rottin'
Disintegrating to dust
Dryer than that vodka
Drain that bottle to the bottom
Cause ya troubles don't mean shit
Cause I am in my drunken bliss
Age 3, 4, 5, 6
To sixteen
A sinking vessel
Is about to be a sunken ship
Yeah, I'm the Titanic
But that alcoholic problem is my iceberg, no ice pick
And I'm losing my vice grip
About to slip
Thanks for givin' me an image
Of who I don't wanna be
Some kind of figurine to picture
Captain Vicodin
Yeah, loved my action figures
Hapless heroes
Probably cause I lacked it, zero
[Hook: Call Me - Shinedown]
Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over, I'll still love you the same
Call me your favorite, call me the worst
Tell me it's over, I don't want you to hurt
It's all that I can say, so I'll be on my way
[Bridge: The Act]
That's what I was exposed to
Is that what I'm gonna be?
What I'm gonna grow to, go do?
What am I supposed to do?
[Verse 2: The Act]
I can see it happening
I fought the good fight
I'm no Rocky, gotta be Ali
Now I see the spots and light
Like a deer, just stare, in fright
But I'm about to fall over
Down a flight of stairs
Every day that I grow older
These thousand pound boulders
Strapped to my shoulders
To much to keep a hold of
And it's crushing the last bit
Of these good things
I keep holed up
Deep enough
To be untouched
I've got the rot, its spreadin' no stop
Locomotive, full speed ahead
Not a moment of slow motion
To catch my breath
As that kid is swallowed whole
Into the ocean
I'm at my coldest depth, emotionless
So distant and scopeless
See no horizon, and I'm ropeless
No guidance, just ghost heads
Talkin' at me
'Piece of shit. Look at you
You're worthless
Stay in and hang in the attic, fuck it, follow the family path set
Become the addict, shoot up and stop giving a fuck
What's stopping you now?
Huh?"
I'm tryin' to figure it out!
[Hook: Call Me - Shinedown]
I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time
[Verse 3: The Act]
Turn the music real loud
And drown out the voices
Of disjointed, disembodied, pointless
Apparitions beggin' for me to listen again
Except they're different now
The faces have changed
To caricatures of my friends
The few that I have left
But it's too late
Nothing they say makes sense
Cause I've got an electric fence
Yeah, that's a good defence
You go ahead, ignore the world
Spiral out of control
Once a chemical change occurs
That's it. You're burned
Burned out
Can't un-boil
So much potential
Robbed. Nonsensical
Toil and trouble
Dabble with the witch's spell
No, no fairy tale
I mean the chemists brew
Its destined
To come true
What a fool to try to
Undue these
Scars and blemishes
Cause they add up, when you're fightin' in the trenches
Gonna die and be buried here
An open grave, no casket
A happy endin'?
No. Don't ask it
Just a mass death pit
Write until my fingers bleed
And fingernails split
And the ink runs dry
Then pen it in blood
Mixed with tears I cried
What do I need?
A fuckin' miracle
Just to heal
Stuck spinning
On that wheel of misfortune
Fuck it, I'm grinning
Madness is winning
Congratulations
I am actually fuckin' breakin
Thought I was unbreakable
Unshakable, no, just stupid
The same as anybody else
Just stubborn and clueless
No wonder I can't love
I have a callused fist sized tumor
Just barely pumpin' enough of
My stupid humour
To keep me movin'
But when you give up
Your body catches on to it
So I can pass easily
Glad I could put it on an easle
The needle needs me, needlessly
Ha, yeah, I'm the goofy funny guy
Because I'm hidin' the darkness
I keep locked inside
Pandora's box
I unlocked it
Run run running
Never far enough to be out of sight
So to the people I've hurt, you wonder why?
I'm just another bad guy
That's what happens when you're living in a lie
So accustomed and attuned
And it nearly became a fact
Close to the truth
But I am just an actor
Permanently living in The Act
[Hook/Bridge: Call Me - Shinedown]
I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be
You know I've led my life like a gypsy
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried
I finally put it all together
But nothing really lasts forever
I had to make a choice that was not mine
I had to say goodbye for the last time
I kept my whole life in suitcase
Never really stayed in one place
Maybe that's the way it should be
You know I've led my life like a gypsy
I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, never mind
God knows I've tried
[Verse 5: The Act]
Just another dude
With family issues
And a bad attitude
Stumbling right through
Just about to amount to
The only thing my father taught me how to
Kick back with a six pack of brews
Make that two
Drink away my problems
My father's not the only one that's got 'em
His mother is off her rocker
His step father is somethin' that's always bothered him
My mother hit rock bottom
But she rose up found God and blossomed
Maybe I can do that too
Takes these woes and box 'em up
I've seen flowers sprout up from the ground
Beneath the concrete, between the cracks
Left from trampling feet
Proof that life refuses to be beat
Breakin' barriers just to taste the sunlight
I am just another dude
With family issues
And a positive attitude
Walking right through
About to amount to
What I learned from all those people around me
Something different
Something new
Because I'm keepin' my head up
So I can get the best view
Now that got this off of my chest
It's time to bury it underneath
In a rose petal grave
Not forgotten, but saved
Because I remember the pain
But never have to feel it again
Never again