Blame Myself by TT17 Lyrics
[Intro]
"What are you doing as an artist?"
"What message are you trying to get across?"
"Why are you doing this?"
Well, let me tell you where it all started
Picture the night, you're in a room, dark
Tryna write some, but you don't know where to start
Tryna get a flow, cuz you're set on the bars
Tryna get the fame, so close, yet so far
Would you rather be hated, or get no streams?
This rap game ain't all it's cracked up to be
I don't make a dime, I rap for free
One day, young fans 'gon scream "TT"
[Verse]
Ima do shows, Ima be known
Inspire the people that stare at their phones
But, if you want, hold your doubt
Fans, they all scream and shout
It don't mean a thing, I'm feelin' tied
It's a good thing that I'm not satisfied
I won't get a big head if I get the fame
I won't get a big head if you scream my name
Cuz Ima remember the hard road it took
Sit down for a story, this song is the book
Let's read it out loud, take a look around
You all aren't determined, I know that look
I had that look, 'bout 15 years
I was the odd one of my peers
Where am I accepted? When will y'all accept this?
Dropped 20 bangs, still not respected
I got no respect, I blame myself
I was immature, I blame myself
I got outta hand, I blame myself
The only one stoppin' me is myself
I don't know if y'all gonna bop this
I don't know if I'm gonna drop this
I don't know if I can top this
Waitin' for the time, when my heart says "Stop this"
I know I'll find a way to one-up this
If i don't like this, I'll corrupt this
Imagine writin' filler, just to stuff this
Couldn't be me, I don't wanna stuff this
It's sad that I'm grinding, and they don't even care
They say that they're watching, but I don't know where
If you playin' this, know that I care
Let's go to the top, let's go to the stairs
Gimme 3 minutes to murder this beat
Just 3 minutes, it's a murder scene
I hate when you say my bars are clean
Cuz I don't want your love to be seen
I like getting hate, I swear that it fuels me
I rap 'bout my life, y'all rap about jewelry
"I'm flexin' a chain, I must be insane
To think that I shine, while y'all in the rain"
I'm in the rain, increasing the pain
Tryna get rid of depression my brain
I sleep bein' slept on, I wake up the same
Waitin' for change, I really need change
Not talkin' bout friends, not talkin' bout girls
Those will all come, when my name's round the world
But I got my boys, ridin' and dyin'
"I vibe with your music" I know that you're lyin'
Cuz I know it's bad, but you know what's sad?
Y'all will get mad, when you could'a been nice, you could'a had
You could'a had me, chose to unadd me
I was nice, and you chose to trash me
But it's okay, I'm okay
I'll take on the hate on my worst day
I'll take on the hate on my first day
On my birthday
The other day, I took a step back
Said my life sucks, not a fact
I ain't poor, I ain't sufferin'
So what am I mad at? My mind was buffering
I guess I was mad that I'm the most hated
That's what I am, I am most hated
Been since day one, February 20
But I'm countin' the G's, I could be moneyless
But I don't care about that, I just wanna rap
I wanna make a livin' off spittin' a rap
I needa chill out, I just gotta let go
I doubted myself, then I learned that it's mental
It's all about if you feelin' yourself
If you feelin' yourself, you bein' yourself
Be yourself, don't make up a name
Deal with the pain, I felt the same
Now I could sit here all day, and sob to the beat
I'm venting out here, don't you dare call it heat!
I'll cry when recording, cuz sometimes I know
Put months into this, and results never show
Lost friends cuz of music, I'm showin' the real me
Don't say that you know, cuz none of you feel me
Don't listen to this, and say, "Oh, what a shame"
My whole life, I've pinned myself to the blame
"What are you doing as an artist?"
"What message are you trying to get across?"
"Why are you doing this?"
Well, let me tell you where it all started
Picture the night, you're in a room, dark
Tryna write some, but you don't know where to start
Tryna get a flow, cuz you're set on the bars
Tryna get the fame, so close, yet so far
Would you rather be hated, or get no streams?
This rap game ain't all it's cracked up to be
I don't make a dime, I rap for free
One day, young fans 'gon scream "TT"
[Verse]
Ima do shows, Ima be known
Inspire the people that stare at their phones
But, if you want, hold your doubt
Fans, they all scream and shout
It don't mean a thing, I'm feelin' tied
It's a good thing that I'm not satisfied
I won't get a big head if I get the fame
I won't get a big head if you scream my name
Cuz Ima remember the hard road it took
Sit down for a story, this song is the book
Let's read it out loud, take a look around
You all aren't determined, I know that look
I had that look, 'bout 15 years
I was the odd one of my peers
Where am I accepted? When will y'all accept this?
Dropped 20 bangs, still not respected
I got no respect, I blame myself
I was immature, I blame myself
I got outta hand, I blame myself
The only one stoppin' me is myself
I don't know if y'all gonna bop this
I don't know if I'm gonna drop this
I don't know if I can top this
Waitin' for the time, when my heart says "Stop this"
I know I'll find a way to one-up this
If i don't like this, I'll corrupt this
Imagine writin' filler, just to stuff this
Couldn't be me, I don't wanna stuff this
It's sad that I'm grinding, and they don't even care
They say that they're watching, but I don't know where
If you playin' this, know that I care
Let's go to the top, let's go to the stairs
Gimme 3 minutes to murder this beat
Just 3 minutes, it's a murder scene
I hate when you say my bars are clean
Cuz I don't want your love to be seen
I like getting hate, I swear that it fuels me
I rap 'bout my life, y'all rap about jewelry
"I'm flexin' a chain, I must be insane
To think that I shine, while y'all in the rain"
I'm in the rain, increasing the pain
Tryna get rid of depression my brain
I sleep bein' slept on, I wake up the same
Waitin' for change, I really need change
Not talkin' bout friends, not talkin' bout girls
Those will all come, when my name's round the world
But I got my boys, ridin' and dyin'
"I vibe with your music" I know that you're lyin'
Cuz I know it's bad, but you know what's sad?
Y'all will get mad, when you could'a been nice, you could'a had
You could'a had me, chose to unadd me
I was nice, and you chose to trash me
But it's okay, I'm okay
I'll take on the hate on my worst day
I'll take on the hate on my first day
On my birthday
The other day, I took a step back
Said my life sucks, not a fact
I ain't poor, I ain't sufferin'
So what am I mad at? My mind was buffering
I guess I was mad that I'm the most hated
That's what I am, I am most hated
Been since day one, February 20
But I'm countin' the G's, I could be moneyless
But I don't care about that, I just wanna rap
I wanna make a livin' off spittin' a rap
I needa chill out, I just gotta let go
I doubted myself, then I learned that it's mental
It's all about if you feelin' yourself
If you feelin' yourself, you bein' yourself
Be yourself, don't make up a name
Deal with the pain, I felt the same
Now I could sit here all day, and sob to the beat
I'm venting out here, don't you dare call it heat!
I'll cry when recording, cuz sometimes I know
Put months into this, and results never show
Lost friends cuz of music, I'm showin' the real me
Don't say that you know, cuz none of you feel me
Don't listen to this, and say, "Oh, what a shame"
My whole life, I've pinned myself to the blame