Self Deprecation by TARA (San Antonio) Lyrics
Verse 1:
You smoke to get high
But I smoke to get normal
You move to get by
But I move like I’m immortal
At least that’s what my brain tells me
I’m indestructible
Shook when I start to bleed
This ain’t possible
I’m man made right
That’s what people seem to think
That I’m somethin’ made to use
Just a cup from which they drink
At least that’s how it feel
At least that’s how it feel
Take what you want
Sew me back up
Don’t give a fuck if I heal
Takes a while to heal
Not as long as before though
I’m used to it now bro
I dive in the shallow
I miss all the free throws
I’m blackin’ out my rainbow
Goin’ out like Van Gogh
Pity party for me
Pity party for mе
Chorus:
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddеst lie
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddest lie
Verse 2:
I do it to myself
Can’t blame no one else
Self deprecation
Never give myself
Any appreciation for the things that I do
Maybe I should start
So I can mend my heart
So I can rise
So I can be how I was
So I can not give a fuck
So I can just brush you off
Keep on my way to the top
I’m on my way to the top
Sticky icky on my fingers
Smell lingers in my hair
That shit doesn’t leave for days
I get inna fuckin’ daze
I don’t wanna behave
I don’t care if I’m safe
I don’t care if I’m safe
But my people
Now that’s a different story
I’d die for them
Where we been
Deadly sins
For them I’m always all in
Don’t matter what it is
I’m always all in
I’m learning to be better
I’m learning how to try
Learning how to love myself
So that I can fly
Take myself up to the sky
Up high cloud nine no time
In no time I’ll be there I swear
Chorus:
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddest lie
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddest lie
You smoke to get high
But I smoke to get normal
You move to get by
But I move like I’m immortal
At least that’s what my brain tells me
I’m indestructible
Shook when I start to bleed
This ain’t possible
I’m man made right
That’s what people seem to think
That I’m somethin’ made to use
Just a cup from which they drink
At least that’s how it feel
At least that’s how it feel
Take what you want
Sew me back up
Don’t give a fuck if I heal
Takes a while to heal
Not as long as before though
I’m used to it now bro
I dive in the shallow
I miss all the free throws
I’m blackin’ out my rainbow
Goin’ out like Van Gogh
Pity party for me
Pity party for mе
Chorus:
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddеst lie
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddest lie
Verse 2:
I do it to myself
Can’t blame no one else
Self deprecation
Never give myself
Any appreciation for the things that I do
Maybe I should start
So I can mend my heart
So I can rise
So I can be how I was
So I can not give a fuck
So I can just brush you off
Keep on my way to the top
I’m on my way to the top
Sticky icky on my fingers
Smell lingers in my hair
That shit doesn’t leave for days
I get inna fuckin’ daze
I don’t wanna behave
I don’t care if I’m safe
I don’t care if I’m safe
But my people
Now that’s a different story
I’d die for them
Where we been
Deadly sins
For them I’m always all in
Don’t matter what it is
I’m always all in
I’m learning to be better
I’m learning how to try
Learning how to love myself
So that I can fly
Take myself up to the sky
Up high cloud nine no time
In no time I’ll be there I swear
Chorus:
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddest lie
I’m not moving fast enough
I’m not satisfied
Cudi said I’m happy
And that’s just the saddest lie