Hold Of My Soul by Switch (Rap) Lyrics
[Intro: Switch]
I got a hole in my soul, I feel hollow and joyless
Grab your hand full of Activin and silence all of the voices
[Verse 1: Switch]
Copping, popping pills without a doctor's appointment
You watched me swallow that poison but you just called it avoidance
Alcohol withdrawals in the morning, hallucinations from lack of sleep
I haven't eaten for almost half a week, the branch that leans the family tree
I'm no longer myself, I'm what I like to consume
I isolate all day, can't let no light in the room
I called you all my friends, now solitude is my friend
All I do for what end? I forgave you, well aware that you'll probably do it again
That's enough for the acceptance formed exclusively through dependency
You extracted the information, and truthfully and intensively, I'm concerned with it's accuracy
Your recovery can't determine my sanity
What's a war without casualties? That's a love without jealousy
I stride not for perfection, I got drive with no direction
Now I'm sleeping in the whip instead of the crib, so shit is very real
Then I took so much Seroquel, I can barely feel the steering wheel
[Hook: Switch]
I'm driving on this road that leads to dying all alone
Because my mind, it is not my own
My sobriety seems impossible, the anxiety's physiological
I admit, I have lost control
See my hands are going numb, it's getting difficult to breathe
I wish my heartbeat would slow
I was introduced to a substance and I lost control
Then this chemical property subtracted a piece of my soul
[Verse 2: Slaine]
I got a hole in my soul and a knife in my heart
I'm left with nowhere to go, I gave my life to this art
Maybe I'm frightened of dark, crazy and slightly bizarre
Baby, I'm fighting with titans, demons are writing these bars
Need a Vicodin, agh! Xanny, white little bar
But that won't wash it away whether I like it or not
So I unravel the clues and try to pick it apart
Broken pieces of glass inside a sick little heart
I'm sick of having to lose everything that I build
Every brick that I laid inside this kingdom of guilt
I been winging and praying with this contingent of pain
For so long, there's really no one else to finger the blame
Nah this is my fault, thought you woulda died for
Barely even knew you in the end, why the fuck you have to lie for?
Deception of the soul in the highest order
I been burnt to the ground, left to ash by a fire starter
[Hook: Switch]
I'm still driving on this road that leads to dying all alone
Because my life, it is not my own
And my happiness seems impossible, it's challenging psychologically
It's difficult to maintain hope
And my feet are going numb, it's getting really hard to smile
I wish this cold heart would die
I was introduced to a person and I relinquished control
And I won't say I'm defeated, but she is taking a toll
[Outro: Switch]
Yeah
Switch, Slaine, IG
I got a hole in my soul, I feel hollow and joyless
Grab your hand full of Activin and silence all of the voices
[Verse 1: Switch]
Copping, popping pills without a doctor's appointment
You watched me swallow that poison but you just called it avoidance
Alcohol withdrawals in the morning, hallucinations from lack of sleep
I haven't eaten for almost half a week, the branch that leans the family tree
I'm no longer myself, I'm what I like to consume
I isolate all day, can't let no light in the room
I called you all my friends, now solitude is my friend
All I do for what end? I forgave you, well aware that you'll probably do it again
That's enough for the acceptance formed exclusively through dependency
You extracted the information, and truthfully and intensively, I'm concerned with it's accuracy
Your recovery can't determine my sanity
What's a war without casualties? That's a love without jealousy
I stride not for perfection, I got drive with no direction
Now I'm sleeping in the whip instead of the crib, so shit is very real
Then I took so much Seroquel, I can barely feel the steering wheel
[Hook: Switch]
I'm driving on this road that leads to dying all alone
Because my mind, it is not my own
My sobriety seems impossible, the anxiety's physiological
I admit, I have lost control
See my hands are going numb, it's getting difficult to breathe
I wish my heartbeat would slow
I was introduced to a substance and I lost control
Then this chemical property subtracted a piece of my soul
[Verse 2: Slaine]
I got a hole in my soul and a knife in my heart
I'm left with nowhere to go, I gave my life to this art
Maybe I'm frightened of dark, crazy and slightly bizarre
Baby, I'm fighting with titans, demons are writing these bars
Need a Vicodin, agh! Xanny, white little bar
But that won't wash it away whether I like it or not
So I unravel the clues and try to pick it apart
Broken pieces of glass inside a sick little heart
I'm sick of having to lose everything that I build
Every brick that I laid inside this kingdom of guilt
I been winging and praying with this contingent of pain
For so long, there's really no one else to finger the blame
Nah this is my fault, thought you woulda died for
Barely even knew you in the end, why the fuck you have to lie for?
Deception of the soul in the highest order
I been burnt to the ground, left to ash by a fire starter
[Hook: Switch]
I'm still driving on this road that leads to dying all alone
Because my life, it is not my own
And my happiness seems impossible, it's challenging psychologically
It's difficult to maintain hope
And my feet are going numb, it's getting really hard to smile
I wish this cold heart would die
I was introduced to a person and I relinquished control
And I won't say I'm defeated, but she is taking a toll
[Outro: Switch]
Yeah
Switch, Slaine, IG