Morbid Mosaics by Spanian Lyrics
Verse 1 (Spanian)
I'm still living
I guess that's half the mission
Doctors said I'm sick
I just think it's my heart that's missing
Cos even though I'm different
I'm still far from insane
I just see the world
Through a different part of the brain
I got a lot of pain inside
I don't need to show it
I walked around dead for years
And didn't even know it
I never talk much
Always lived in silence and vengeance
That's probably why
I've always been a violent offender
I'm not a soldier
I never spent time in trenches
But I will pop more nines
Than a child molester
I hate the world
And all of mans inherited weakness
Anything good in my life
I always tear it to pieces
Ask around they'll tell ya
I'm a fuckin scumbag
Never had friends
And I treat girls like they're cum rags
I could make the fuckin sun black
And skies turn red
Cos what's inside my head's
A mind designed by death
Bridge (Spanian)
It's broken pieces of a world
In morbid mosaics
Where demons live
And angels fall like snowflakes
Every step's just another
Towards a cold place
But you hold on
Till your eyes close
And bones ache
2nd verse (Spanian)
If these were my last words
I'd probably say
Fuck the world
Kill police
And let them bagpipes play
I know about full control
And how we act like slaves
I know about plans to make kids
Act like gays
That's why every track is my canvas
And ill paint you verbal illustrations
Depicting sins in Dante's Inferno
Cos I don't feel shit else
So what the fuck you expect
And being real in the streets
Doesn't get you respect
My words cause fear
Like the noise from guns
I'm the point of no return
Turning boys to thugs
Every girl I had's a slut
Heaps of boys have fucked
That's probably why nowadays
I'm paranoid of love
Sometimes I fight myself
Until it makes me cry
Don't ask me how I feel
I fuckin hate my life
I've been a junkie and a thief
But who gives a fuck
Cos I spent 12 years locked up
And never fuckin snitched once
Bridge (Spanian)
It's broken pieces of a world
In morbid mosaics
Where demons live
And angels fall like snowflakes
Every step's just another
Towards a cold place
But you hold on
Till your eyes close
And bones ache
3rd verse (Spanian)
You see
I've only had respect
For one man in my life
He told me
Never take orders
And understand in a fight
That compassion is my enemy
And a chance that I could die
He overdosed when I was 20
Mum said it was suicide
I miss my big brother
And I wish I was there for him
So in this life
I recognise death
Is always there calling
It will make you a heroin addict
Despite the risk
It will break your fuckin neck
It'd knife your ribs
It'd make you feel sick
And tear your life to bits
Like cowards that put fear
Into their wife and kids
My wife and kid
That's the only reason
That I'm still breathing
I miss em
And it hurts me
Even when I'm sleeping
Cos I sleep
And I'm in prison
Even when I'm dreaming
And my dreams
Are all cursed
At the will of demons
That's why I never hesitate
To hurt some people
I've done things in my life
That are worse than evil
I grow horns
And transform
Under a churches steeple
Spanian motherfucker
Every verse is lethal
I'm still living
I guess that's half the mission
Doctors said I'm sick
I just think it's my heart that's missing
Cos even though I'm different
I'm still far from insane
I just see the world
Through a different part of the brain
I got a lot of pain inside
I don't need to show it
I walked around dead for years
And didn't even know it
I never talk much
Always lived in silence and vengeance
That's probably why
I've always been a violent offender
I'm not a soldier
I never spent time in trenches
But I will pop more nines
Than a child molester
I hate the world
And all of mans inherited weakness
Anything good in my life
I always tear it to pieces
Ask around they'll tell ya
I'm a fuckin scumbag
Never had friends
And I treat girls like they're cum rags
I could make the fuckin sun black
And skies turn red
Cos what's inside my head's
A mind designed by death
Bridge (Spanian)
It's broken pieces of a world
In morbid mosaics
Where demons live
And angels fall like snowflakes
Every step's just another
Towards a cold place
But you hold on
Till your eyes close
And bones ache
2nd verse (Spanian)
If these were my last words
I'd probably say
Fuck the world
Kill police
And let them bagpipes play
I know about full control
And how we act like slaves
I know about plans to make kids
Act like gays
That's why every track is my canvas
And ill paint you verbal illustrations
Depicting sins in Dante's Inferno
Cos I don't feel shit else
So what the fuck you expect
And being real in the streets
Doesn't get you respect
My words cause fear
Like the noise from guns
I'm the point of no return
Turning boys to thugs
Every girl I had's a slut
Heaps of boys have fucked
That's probably why nowadays
I'm paranoid of love
Sometimes I fight myself
Until it makes me cry
Don't ask me how I feel
I fuckin hate my life
I've been a junkie and a thief
But who gives a fuck
Cos I spent 12 years locked up
And never fuckin snitched once
Bridge (Spanian)
It's broken pieces of a world
In morbid mosaics
Where demons live
And angels fall like snowflakes
Every step's just another
Towards a cold place
But you hold on
Till your eyes close
And bones ache
3rd verse (Spanian)
You see
I've only had respect
For one man in my life
He told me
Never take orders
And understand in a fight
That compassion is my enemy
And a chance that I could die
He overdosed when I was 20
Mum said it was suicide
I miss my big brother
And I wish I was there for him
So in this life
I recognise death
Is always there calling
It will make you a heroin addict
Despite the risk
It will break your fuckin neck
It'd knife your ribs
It'd make you feel sick
And tear your life to bits
Like cowards that put fear
Into their wife and kids
My wife and kid
That's the only reason
That I'm still breathing
I miss em
And it hurts me
Even when I'm sleeping
Cos I sleep
And I'm in prison
Even when I'm dreaming
And my dreams
Are all cursed
At the will of demons
That's why I never hesitate
To hurt some people
I've done things in my life
That are worse than evil
I grow horns
And transform
Under a churches steeple
Spanian motherfucker
Every verse is lethal