House / /Home by Sight. Lyrics

His house is where my guilt lives
And yes, it swallows me whole
I’m shivering. my tired tears are so cold
Only on my own would i so boldly unfold
Only here ‘cause i was sold my own fool’s gold
And now my goal is to lift this coal from my soul
Blacked before, in this house i once called home
Until i learned i don’t belong
Left our lives hanging in time
And i want to die
Or at the very least go back home
And i wish i never left it behind
But what the fuck do i know?
I’d probably still be miserable
Only miss it now that i’m gone
Never really let it hit, how it felt to really feel home
I miss the cat walking beside me, purring softly
Her face buried in my bones
Her brother lies lazily
On a laundry linen load
My eyes right next to yours
Getting a closer look at what we know
And i can’t wait to grow old
We won’t have to learn to use as many words anymore
And it kills me that i stop myself from loving you the way that i won’t
I’m terrified of my real life
My white knuckles can’t let go, let it grow
Oh, no, stop the show! i’ve seen this one before
It ends when you close that door
And i’m crying on the floor all alone
This is what i feared all along
How little did i know. you’re still someone if you’re being yourself all alone