VCR/Nosebleed by Serpent Spit Apothecaries Lyrics
Dear -
Never thought I missed you til you came back
Never realised you filled that gap
Got me trapped between wanting you or staying safe
Trying not to waste this false courage I've made
Days the same song plays in my head
Lying to myself or lying to you, I'm still lying in my bed
Still not knowing what to do
Remember when we made plans to spend a week in the woods?
Told ourselves that we should get some friends together and go camping if we could?
Put up my hood cause I was shy and nervous to talk that day
I still feel that way, still some stuff I should say
But I can't, that's not your fault
And you stick in my mind
Like a tape on repeat
Said you play in my mind
Got your song on repeat
I just want you to love me
Like you loved him
Cause I'm still thinking about what could've been
.(part 2)
I want you to love me
Like you loved him
But if not that's cool hopefully we can stay friends
This ain't the end for us, I swear that I know it
That's how life flows trust me I'm a poet
Sat across the room from yoh hoping you would notice
Noticed all the shit you were going... Through
Who knew I'd be your shoulder
For the next couple months we became open and as we became older, we grew colder
Said one day we might get married, we didn't know if we were joking, secretly hoping this would end up better than most things in our lives
Tryna stay wise, and I'm still here if you need a shoulder to cry on
(Nosebleed)
What kind of love makes you feel this pain?
When the one you love doesn’t feel the same?
When you love someone yet there is no sun
You can only feel the rain feel the shame
Cause you laid your heart and soul bare
But you could already tell that her feelings weren’t there
Tears in your eyes as you gasping for air
Tryna brush it all off like you didn’t even care
You don’t get out of bed and you haven't cut your hair
Dirty laundry on the floor but it’s still what you wear
Cause there would used to be a time where you’d just stop and stare
But when you see her you feel this shit right there?
Right from the heart
(Spoken word)
I have feelings for you, and I know that you won’t feel the same about me
But when I’m with you there -
I don’t know
I feel normal, like I can be myself
I feel like we connect on a whole different level
I want to spend every day with you, and every night
I want to lay in your bed and watch movies while eating pizza in our pajamas
I want to play smashbros at 2 in the morning knowing fully well that we both have essays due by next friday
But it doesn’t matter because the way you laugh
And the way you smile just makes everything else disappear
Your golden hair shines
As the light from your lamp reflects into my eyes
And you ask why I’m staring at you
And I don’t have a good enough answer so I just laugh
Because no amount of words can express the true amount of emotion and care I have for you
You’re one of the few people, if not the only person
I would gladly risk my own dreams
My own desires so that you could live out yours
Because I know I’d rather spend my life wondering what could have been for me than what it could have been for you
And I know you don’t feel the same
It’s been almost 6 or so months now
And I haven’t asked anyone else out
I have even turned down some people
Because I don’t feel the same about anyone as I do about you
And it’s not your fault you don’t feel the same
That’s not what I’m saying
But I think that, what you taught me
Is that no matter how close you feel to someone
They might not feel the same way
And that, sometimes the things you want most in life
The people you want most in life, aren’t always obtainable
That’s truth, that’s my perspective, that’s my sadness, that’s my pain
But what it isn’t is a lie
But if you ever do feel the way I do, I’ll be here
I’ll be waiting
And I’ll come running
Wherever you want me to be
Wherever you need me to be
Because the place that I want to be
Is the place that you think I should be
The place I make you happy
But until then, I’ll wait
Others may come along
But unless I find someone that makes me feel the way I do about you
I will continue to wait
But in the end you’ll always be you
And I’ll always be me
Never thought I missed you til you came back
Never realised you filled that gap
Got me trapped between wanting you or staying safe
Trying not to waste this false courage I've made
Days the same song plays in my head
Lying to myself or lying to you, I'm still lying in my bed
Still not knowing what to do
Remember when we made plans to spend a week in the woods?
Told ourselves that we should get some friends together and go camping if we could?
Put up my hood cause I was shy and nervous to talk that day
I still feel that way, still some stuff I should say
But I can't, that's not your fault
And you stick in my mind
Like a tape on repeat
Said you play in my mind
Got your song on repeat
I just want you to love me
Like you loved him
Cause I'm still thinking about what could've been
.(part 2)
I want you to love me
Like you loved him
But if not that's cool hopefully we can stay friends
This ain't the end for us, I swear that I know it
That's how life flows trust me I'm a poet
Sat across the room from yoh hoping you would notice
Noticed all the shit you were going... Through
Who knew I'd be your shoulder
For the next couple months we became open and as we became older, we grew colder
Said one day we might get married, we didn't know if we were joking, secretly hoping this would end up better than most things in our lives
Tryna stay wise, and I'm still here if you need a shoulder to cry on
(Nosebleed)
What kind of love makes you feel this pain?
When the one you love doesn’t feel the same?
When you love someone yet there is no sun
You can only feel the rain feel the shame
Cause you laid your heart and soul bare
But you could already tell that her feelings weren’t there
Tears in your eyes as you gasping for air
Tryna brush it all off like you didn’t even care
You don’t get out of bed and you haven't cut your hair
Dirty laundry on the floor but it’s still what you wear
Cause there would used to be a time where you’d just stop and stare
But when you see her you feel this shit right there?
Right from the heart
(Spoken word)
I have feelings for you, and I know that you won’t feel the same about me
But when I’m with you there -
I don’t know
I feel normal, like I can be myself
I feel like we connect on a whole different level
I want to spend every day with you, and every night
I want to lay in your bed and watch movies while eating pizza in our pajamas
I want to play smashbros at 2 in the morning knowing fully well that we both have essays due by next friday
But it doesn’t matter because the way you laugh
And the way you smile just makes everything else disappear
Your golden hair shines
As the light from your lamp reflects into my eyes
And you ask why I’m staring at you
And I don’t have a good enough answer so I just laugh
Because no amount of words can express the true amount of emotion and care I have for you
You’re one of the few people, if not the only person
I would gladly risk my own dreams
My own desires so that you could live out yours
Because I know I’d rather spend my life wondering what could have been for me than what it could have been for you
And I know you don’t feel the same
It’s been almost 6 or so months now
And I haven’t asked anyone else out
I have even turned down some people
Because I don’t feel the same about anyone as I do about you
And it’s not your fault you don’t feel the same
That’s not what I’m saying
But I think that, what you taught me
Is that no matter how close you feel to someone
They might not feel the same way
And that, sometimes the things you want most in life
The people you want most in life, aren’t always obtainable
That’s truth, that’s my perspective, that’s my sadness, that’s my pain
But what it isn’t is a lie
But if you ever do feel the way I do, I’ll be here
I’ll be waiting
And I’ll come running
Wherever you want me to be
Wherever you need me to be
Because the place that I want to be
Is the place that you think I should be
The place I make you happy
But until then, I’ll wait
Others may come along
But unless I find someone that makes me feel the way I do about you
I will continue to wait
But in the end you’ll always be you
And I’ll always be me