Album SUICIDAL song MANIAC by SHIVAM kumar Lyrics

Tassvire jo laggi hain mere is diwaar peh, todh chuka hu sab mere in hath se, na jane kaisa rista mera in sannato se khone ko kya hai ab kya nikalu main in raakh se, Mujhe daraye jo wo mera hi ehsaas hain, chahiye na kissi ka sath mujhe aaj khud ki talash hai, itna hara hu main aaj khud se khud ka sahara hu main,girte diwaaro ke samne khara hu main............sab barbaad hua, sab bekaar hua, khud ki galtiyo ka main khud sikaar hua, Duniya badalte dekha, surj ko jalte dekha, na jane kab badlega mere hatho ki rekha. sham sabere bas chaya andhera, subha ki aas me main khara akela, kiski talash hai jisse dil ye dundhe hai kiska hai sor jo mere kaano me gunje hai.......aaj mila hai jo, jo bhi hai mere paas hai ye rab ki meher, ya hu main satan ka kash............................Everything seem so disturbing man i need some safeguard, its like the man for my self i wanna be, but i almost feel like m buried in a graveyard its in my backyard, man i m becoming like so MANIAC...........Walking on street then when i see people happy and laughing, They even dont look to me m i so unimportant it makes me feel so different thats why they neglecting but you better be prepare its not like i m not Reacting its just a matter of time so i m just waiting, waiting oneday i walk the road and people walk to me with guitar in my hand i m gonna rock your world in lots of interview how i did it you gonna ask to me, in sky when i see everytime some plane going through me, i feel man how its to feel.........but till now i have never been in airport, its such a money thing my father told me money does not make man, man makes money, so i believe oneday i will be going for vacation i fly up on a plane filled up money. Man i became so obstructed all thing seems to me crappy, having such a higher dream now nothing makes me happy.......i Wonder why i can't be normal think what other people think for, i just cry to kick this thought out of my mind man i have nothing this is what i got in my life this is what i live for, and i dont care what they say about me, they really like to break u , they dont know how hard it to stand everyday and say that you can do it, now no matter how many waal i need to break out man with my thin skin only i decided to fight............before losing the bit of my heart before reaching the star, i wish i could make it and say goodbye like a SUPERSTAR.............Normal life is boring being practical m ignoring, what my girlfriend wants from me is breakup, cuz i dont have time to see her and her make up, Seems every relation i m getting over man, this time i feel so helpless and sober, lacking is the part of life, i m searching its cause now i m just alone in my empty house. with being in party with my friend i dont feel i enjoyed, may its so hard to forget for what you have cried. So when i need to get feel like a rocket i just walk road all alone with some money in my pocket, ear ful of headfone and a Jesus locket..............people have their own way to come out from the bad days gone..........i just write song all days long...........God made some pain which is hard to heel them, he should also provide a emogun so that we can kill them...........hard work struggle this is all about life, and we all have choices so we better not snuggle.........this is life, this is fact and being innocent is not the option we should REACT....REACT.....REACT