BRUISED by Ricky Himself Lyrics

[Intro]
Fuck
I (?) in the light
You followed me into the lights, camera, action
Let's see life from different views
Every time I do, I end up bruised, on average
I can see into the future if I choose
Watch the madness
I can see you there, 'cause I beat you there

[Verse]
Free time, finding ways to fuck up my chakra
Beeline on the train to downtown for the doctor
I was feeling stuck in the light of who I tried to be
Kept a hammer tucked, paranoia and anxiety
Cousin put a gun to my head, he looked dead in the eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes
Grandpa was a Freemason
Close to life, I'm dream chasing
Lost my life to evasions
Bank check in my statements
State checking my arrangements
Life insurance, just incases
Usually a daily basis, when I worry about money I'm making
Money tucked under the mattress
Could've went towards your bachelor's
Plan to get myself a new home
Went and bought a chain after
[Outro]
I keep looking for a place to be
Where I can speak my mind
And I've been trying hard to find the pe-