Thankful by Rich Milz Lyrics
[Verse:1]
I am
The culmination of all my experiences
What’s placed in your vision may seem identical to convict in prison
But take a walk in my tennis
We gon hit memory boulevard and pause a bit at its genesis, with me?
Age 5, the farthest back I remember
Parents were married
But papas presence was hardly consistent
Prolly why often they caught me involved in all kind of mischief; Not to mention the demons inside my closet kept hidden
Gеtting bigger
At least that's what you think when you 6 and you indеpendent and friends is cheering your sinful decisions
No inquisitions on my end
Spent every penny to buy in
On every thrill and exciting thing they were willing to try
Thought i was living the life
Ain't have an inkling of guidance
Not realizing that my future held an immense ton of strife
But dont it say in the bible
He use the evil for righteousness
So in retrospect I'm thankful as I sit here and write this
I'm thankful, yea
[Chorus]
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
(Deep inside my heart)
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
( I am so thankful)
Cause when I look back at the mess I've caused
Its clear to see you brought me through it all
Thats why im so thankful (thankful) thankful (thankful) thankful
[Verse:2]
Age 7 exploring my sexuality
Casually morphed to physical, quickly went pornographically. Sitting with dirty magazines sinking deep in depravity
But i never noticed so I continued it happily, right?
But as dabbled temptations became unnatural
And now I grapple with same sex attraction, like how this happen? I mean
Two men together they say you gay, call you faggot
Afraid to make known my thoughts so I buried that in the casket. By now, I'm 9 or 10 and I'm training to be a gangsta
Inflated by the examples of age older companions
Got praise if a punch was landed for someone talking outlandish and I knew it was wrong but why was my homies happy
Bumping fist, giving dap to me
Clueless that all these actions was rooting in my anatomy prepping future catastrophes
But Yeshua had me despite all my foolish madness
And since I'm in view of that I give gratitude to his majesty. Thankful, yea
[Chorus]
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
(Deep inside my heart)
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
( I am so thankful)
Cause when I look back at the mess I've caused
Its clear to see you brought me through it all
Thats why im so thankful (thankful) thankful (thankful) thankful
[Verse:3]
Continuing in my wickedness
Simply followed scripts given
I never considered a lack of wisdom had been my nemesis. (Yea) And as I sit here remembering past offenses
From being a kid and how that set in motion all my addictions
I smile. Thinking wow, like i should be underground
From shooting and being shot at to robbing and looting houses. Incarcerations and sexual escapades I ain't proud of
God remembered my prayer of faith as a child and obliged it!, Yea, He obliged it, man
So Im thankful
Free from all of my shameful disdain that inflicted pain and thanksgiving I gotta bankful
(Yea)
Writing checks with that currency be my aim
Tryna give em more than they need
Tell em to keep the change
Hopefully that's contagious in making folk do the same
Cause um we in a drought and I'm begging God for the rain
Ain't no complaining just labor to love a neighbor
Genuine, from the heart, and showing appreciation
I said Ain't no complaining, just labor to love a neighbor
Genuine, from the heart, and showing appreciation
[Chorus]
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
(Deep inside my heart)
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
( I am so thankful)
Cause when I look back at the mess I've caused
Its clear to see you brought me through it all
Thats why im so thankful (thankful) thankful (thankful) thankful
I am
The culmination of all my experiences
What’s placed in your vision may seem identical to convict in prison
But take a walk in my tennis
We gon hit memory boulevard and pause a bit at its genesis, with me?
Age 5, the farthest back I remember
Parents were married
But papas presence was hardly consistent
Prolly why often they caught me involved in all kind of mischief; Not to mention the demons inside my closet kept hidden
Gеtting bigger
At least that's what you think when you 6 and you indеpendent and friends is cheering your sinful decisions
No inquisitions on my end
Spent every penny to buy in
On every thrill and exciting thing they were willing to try
Thought i was living the life
Ain't have an inkling of guidance
Not realizing that my future held an immense ton of strife
But dont it say in the bible
He use the evil for righteousness
So in retrospect I'm thankful as I sit here and write this
I'm thankful, yea
[Chorus]
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
(Deep inside my heart)
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
( I am so thankful)
Cause when I look back at the mess I've caused
Its clear to see you brought me through it all
Thats why im so thankful (thankful) thankful (thankful) thankful
[Verse:2]
Age 7 exploring my sexuality
Casually morphed to physical, quickly went pornographically. Sitting with dirty magazines sinking deep in depravity
But i never noticed so I continued it happily, right?
But as dabbled temptations became unnatural
And now I grapple with same sex attraction, like how this happen? I mean
Two men together they say you gay, call you faggot
Afraid to make known my thoughts so I buried that in the casket. By now, I'm 9 or 10 and I'm training to be a gangsta
Inflated by the examples of age older companions
Got praise if a punch was landed for someone talking outlandish and I knew it was wrong but why was my homies happy
Bumping fist, giving dap to me
Clueless that all these actions was rooting in my anatomy prepping future catastrophes
But Yeshua had me despite all my foolish madness
And since I'm in view of that I give gratitude to his majesty. Thankful, yea
[Chorus]
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
(Deep inside my heart)
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
( I am so thankful)
Cause when I look back at the mess I've caused
Its clear to see you brought me through it all
Thats why im so thankful (thankful) thankful (thankful) thankful
[Verse:3]
Continuing in my wickedness
Simply followed scripts given
I never considered a lack of wisdom had been my nemesis. (Yea) And as I sit here remembering past offenses
From being a kid and how that set in motion all my addictions
I smile. Thinking wow, like i should be underground
From shooting and being shot at to robbing and looting houses. Incarcerations and sexual escapades I ain't proud of
God remembered my prayer of faith as a child and obliged it!, Yea, He obliged it, man
So Im thankful
Free from all of my shameful disdain that inflicted pain and thanksgiving I gotta bankful
(Yea)
Writing checks with that currency be my aim
Tryna give em more than they need
Tell em to keep the change
Hopefully that's contagious in making folk do the same
Cause um we in a drought and I'm begging God for the rain
Ain't no complaining just labor to love a neighbor
Genuine, from the heart, and showing appreciation
I said Ain't no complaining, just labor to love a neighbor
Genuine, from the heart, and showing appreciation
[Chorus]
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
(Deep inside my heart)
Deep inside my heart I'm so thankful
( I am so thankful)
Cause when I look back at the mess I've caused
Its clear to see you brought me through it all
Thats why im so thankful (thankful) thankful (thankful) thankful