Recurring Thoughts by Restless Modern Lyrics

[Verse 1]
11:45 PM
I heard her screams outside my room
All my mind could think is you
And everyone it happens to
Fuck them with my whole chest
Does my heart hate, I hope no but I think yes
If I could be there with a gun in my band
I would pull on the trigger
No shake in my hand
That's cold
But you probably deserve it
I know God expects a lot, but I can't ever be perfect
Thankful I can make mistakes and avoid my end
I just want to have fun with my friends
I remember no problems, yeah
Friday nights when we were 17
Hardest years gon' cost you
But I gained more than I could ever dream
Dream
Dream
[Chorus]
And this is what I got right now
And it's not a lot but it's more than before
God only knows, I always want more
20-foot ceilings and suicide doors
And this is what I got right now
And it's not a lot but it's more than before
God only knows, I always want more
20-foot ceilings and suicide doors

[Verse 2]
I want the freedom to live how I please
With my girl and my dog and my friends on the beach
With no shadows from the past
How can you be sad in Paris with me
Protecting fragility
With money, purpose, and weed

[Outro]
Scarring is a part of me
And my thoughts don't lie, but they're calling me
To jump off
To jump off, yeah
Send me all your RIPs
If I hate myself, how can I retrieve
What I've lost
What I've lost, yeah
Scarring is a part of me
And my thoughts don't lie, but they're calling me
To jump off