One Glass of Rosé by Rebecca Karpen Lyrics

My feet were heavy on the streets of DC
Carrying a phantom
In the soles of my feet
Walked a couple miles
Probably three or four
Listened to an album that you liked
Guilted into temple
That Yom Kippur

My head was reeling as I rode back and forth
Staring out the windows
Of the nighttime Megabus course
Looking for an angel
To put my mind at ease
Settling on you
And the cloud-like curve of your cheeks

Maybe I got reckless
Or I was just bored
I’m constantly running in circles
Not really going towards
Anything
I think of too many things
That I’d be better off to ignore
Maybe I got reckless
Or I was just bored
I’m constantly running in circles
Not really going towards
Anything
I think of too many things
That I’d be better off to just ignore

If my eyes were the color of that mailbox
Think that you could love me then?
If I was a little bit older?
Had wider shoulders?
Was worlds less innocent?
If I didn’t lack faith in God
Unless I wanted something bad?
I won’t take back what I said
Because I meant every word of it
I’ve never lied to you
Maybe you would’ve preferred me to

I’m not ashamed of anything I’ve ever felt
From the very start
We both knew there was no way this could ever end well
I’m a smart girl but I’d ignore my foresight
I’ll change my schedule to fit your nights
I’m much braver than you've ever been
You think this is easy
Putting myself in your hands
Just to be dropped over and over again
The ground where you walk is sacred
Like the airport floor in Tel Aviv
I know my logic is half-baked and
My friends were terrified of what you did to me
This ain’t the Western Wall
It’s just the tarmac
But I bend too easily
To just go back
I’ve already made the call
There’s nothing anyone can say
That could change a thing
At all
I would never kill you Goliath
But God, you make me feel so small

I’m proud of myself
For sticking up for myself this way
Do you miss me?
I hope you do
But you don’t miss me
Half as much as I miss you
I wouldn’t take it back
Because I don’t regret it
I was in love with you
And that’s brave and not pathetic

You don’t scare me
You can’t
I’ve laughed in the face of things I hope you’ll never see
And never understand
You don’t scare me
You’re just a reminder of tragedy
That I could build you a kingdom
But I still can’t make you love me

I’m doing well
I’m doing fine
I act like you’re not on my mind
I’m writing a lot
So I guess that’s something at least
I don’t write for you
I only write for me
I’m trying to put the past behind
And move beyond my misgivings
I contend with ghosts
And they don’t want to share me with the living
Think it’s time to sit with the living
But you’re better company
I’m doing well I’m doing fine
It’s not easy it takes time
I’m doing well I’m doing fine
I need to take my time
I need to take my time
I need to take my time
I need to take my time
I need to take my time
Need to take my time
I need to take my time
It’s taking so much time
I need to take my time
I need to take my time
I need to take my time
I’m gonna be just fine
Gonna be just fine

I can take my time

My feet were heavy on the streets of DC
Carrying your phantom
In the soles of my feet
Walked a couple miles
Probably three or four
Listened to an album that you liked
One day I hope I can listen to it
When the thought of you
Doesn’t hurt me
Anymore