Backslider by Ray Curenton Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Tell me the truth: are you now Pharisees?
Talking ‘bout worship but where's the sanity?
Auctioning blessings for tithes and offering
Nursery rhymes disguised as maturity
But I guess I'm not supposed to make critique
To go against God – you call that blaspheming
But God and me cool, my issue tangibly
Is within the four walls of your hypocrisy
[Pre-Chorus 1]
Was it my mouth (tearing down the patriarchy)?
Was it my mind (deconstructing the binary)?
Is it my heart?
Baby, I don't know but I can't change that
Is this all about my sexuality?
[Chorus]
So I'm a backslider
On the wrong side of the divider
Must be your insider
Since I'm no longer a headliner
So I'm a backslider
Guess I'll find a new cosigner
I don't know why you don't love me
Jesus said you're supposed to love me
[Verse 2]
You want me to preach and you want me to sing
You want me to shout and call it ministry
But then when I tell you I want to go green
You flip the script like you don't know me
For 15 years I gave my everything
Go on, shut me out but it's disturbing
When faking myself I had anointing
But you ain't tryna hear me
[Pre-Chorus 2]
Was it my mouth (tearing down your patriarchy)?
Was it my mind (deconstructing your binary)?
Is it my heart?
Baby, I don't know but I can't change that
Does this mean that I am in apostasy?
[Chorus]
Well I'm a backslider
On the wrong side of the divider
Must be your insider
Cus I'm no longer a headliner
So I'm a backslider
Guess I'll find a new cosigner
I don't know why you don't love me
Jesus said you're supposed to love me
[Bridge]
So why do I feel like you don't love me?
Why do I feel like you don't care?
Why do I feel like church is ugly?
And why do I feel like love is rare?
You poke around and it's so troubling
I run my mouth and I'm the fool
In pride you say so you can judge me
But in the spirit you're just cruel
[Chorus]
Well I'm a backslider
On the wrong side of the divider
Must be your insider
Cus I'm no longer a headliner
So I'm a backslider
Guess I'll find a new cosigner
I don't know why you don't love me
Jesus said you're supposed to love me
Tell me the truth: are you now Pharisees?
Talking ‘bout worship but where's the sanity?
Auctioning blessings for tithes and offering
Nursery rhymes disguised as maturity
But I guess I'm not supposed to make critique
To go against God – you call that blaspheming
But God and me cool, my issue tangibly
Is within the four walls of your hypocrisy
[Pre-Chorus 1]
Was it my mouth (tearing down the patriarchy)?
Was it my mind (deconstructing the binary)?
Is it my heart?
Baby, I don't know but I can't change that
Is this all about my sexuality?
[Chorus]
So I'm a backslider
On the wrong side of the divider
Must be your insider
Since I'm no longer a headliner
So I'm a backslider
Guess I'll find a new cosigner
I don't know why you don't love me
Jesus said you're supposed to love me
[Verse 2]
You want me to preach and you want me to sing
You want me to shout and call it ministry
But then when I tell you I want to go green
You flip the script like you don't know me
For 15 years I gave my everything
Go on, shut me out but it's disturbing
When faking myself I had anointing
But you ain't tryna hear me
[Pre-Chorus 2]
Was it my mouth (tearing down your patriarchy)?
Was it my mind (deconstructing your binary)?
Is it my heart?
Baby, I don't know but I can't change that
Does this mean that I am in apostasy?
[Chorus]
Well I'm a backslider
On the wrong side of the divider
Must be your insider
Cus I'm no longer a headliner
So I'm a backslider
Guess I'll find a new cosigner
I don't know why you don't love me
Jesus said you're supposed to love me
[Bridge]
So why do I feel like you don't love me?
Why do I feel like you don't care?
Why do I feel like church is ugly?
And why do I feel like love is rare?
You poke around and it's so troubling
I run my mouth and I'm the fool
In pride you say so you can judge me
But in the spirit you're just cruel
[Chorus]
Well I'm a backslider
On the wrong side of the divider
Must be your insider
Cus I'm no longer a headliner
So I'm a backslider
Guess I'll find a new cosigner
I don't know why you don't love me
Jesus said you're supposed to love me