I Never by Raccoon Venom Lyrics

I never expected to wake up this many times
Just to see the simmering lights
Hundreds injured, more than 50 dead
Anywhere you go
No way to know
Might cut it close
Or this could be the end
I never really feared death but now
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Without worrying about my family and friends
If they're safe and if I'll ever see them again

Never would've guessed that I would lose one of my best friends
When you were only 29
I've lived a relatively loss-free life
Without realizing we're all running out of time
Nothin's fucked me up more than losing you
I never knew one tragedy could change my whole world view

I never used to be scared
Before I became self aware
To get on a plane
To drink some beer
I'm so tired of livin' in fear
I wish I didn't fear death
I wish I couldn't lose friends
I wish I knew
What happens in the end
It just feels weird to be alive
'Cause I never thought I'd wake up this many times
I never really feared death but now
[???]
Without worrying about my family and friends
If they're safe and if I'll ever see them again