What Am I? Suicidal Thoughts by RYN ABVERT Lyrics
[Verse 1: RYN ABVERT]
Ay, Yuh
What am I to my mother?
Some nigga that hollers, bothers
Doesn't help with struggles in the house?
If I'm nothing to myself, what am I to others?
Some fuck nigga, a bitch nigga, a dumb nigga, a stupid nigga?
Is that what they think, I don't know
Does it feel good when you're
Together with your family as a whole?
Sometimes I feel that sensation, but It's hella rare
I told my mom I loved her
And she really didn't seem to care
But It's ok I'm movin' on and thinking about the future
This life thing is hard man I think I need a tutor
To tell me the way, oh wait that's G.O.D
Blessing me, my family, and all of my homies
And I know that is true
One day I'll get connected to my roots
I'm not in depression, I gotta have a good mood
Because nobody likes someone who is plain rude
Watch me move I'm stuntin' every move
[Verse 2: RYN ABVERT]
And some people say they like my flow
To keep doing this rap shit and I'll blow up gold
Ab, this song is so good!
But I really can't tell if they're telling me the truth
I have to fake shit to make my momma'
Not think about me as a fool
Man I have to lie about my grades in school
Telling her that I'm secure, but secretly I'm getting the bag
I rob shit to feel nice
To flex that I do crimes
But that's not the way
I did l*** and I don't feel the same
I was addicted but I'm not a G-Thang
I feel so bad I feel so fuckin' insecure
I getting hit with shit like I'm a fucking snare
Should I keep going or should I stop there?
I don't know it all depends on your fucking ear
[Chorus: RYN ABVERT]
I tell myself that I'm ok
But sometimes I just can't take the pain
Suicidal thoughts in my head
Mom I'm sorry for the shit that I said
I tell myself that I'm ok
But sometimes I just can't take the pain
Suicidal thoughts in my head
Mom I'm sorry for the shit that I said
Outro:
ABVERT, Yuh
Ay, Yuh
What am I to my mother?
Some nigga that hollers, bothers
Doesn't help with struggles in the house?
If I'm nothing to myself, what am I to others?
Some fuck nigga, a bitch nigga, a dumb nigga, a stupid nigga?
Is that what they think, I don't know
Does it feel good when you're
Together with your family as a whole?
Sometimes I feel that sensation, but It's hella rare
I told my mom I loved her
And she really didn't seem to care
But It's ok I'm movin' on and thinking about the future
This life thing is hard man I think I need a tutor
To tell me the way, oh wait that's G.O.D
Blessing me, my family, and all of my homies
And I know that is true
One day I'll get connected to my roots
I'm not in depression, I gotta have a good mood
Because nobody likes someone who is plain rude
Watch me move I'm stuntin' every move
[Verse 2: RYN ABVERT]
And some people say they like my flow
To keep doing this rap shit and I'll blow up gold
Ab, this song is so good!
But I really can't tell if they're telling me the truth
I have to fake shit to make my momma'
Not think about me as a fool
Man I have to lie about my grades in school
Telling her that I'm secure, but secretly I'm getting the bag
I rob shit to feel nice
To flex that I do crimes
But that's not the way
I did l*** and I don't feel the same
I was addicted but I'm not a G-Thang
I feel so bad I feel so fuckin' insecure
I getting hit with shit like I'm a fucking snare
Should I keep going or should I stop there?
I don't know it all depends on your fucking ear
[Chorus: RYN ABVERT]
I tell myself that I'm ok
But sometimes I just can't take the pain
Suicidal thoughts in my head
Mom I'm sorry for the shit that I said
I tell myself that I'm ok
But sometimes I just can't take the pain
Suicidal thoughts in my head
Mom I'm sorry for the shit that I said
Outro:
ABVERT, Yuh