17 Club by RM Beholder Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I don't even know how to live my life
I'm the king, this is my kingdom, but it crumbles even if I try
And I could be lying but it doesn't seem any better cause I'm too shy
To get out & feel better, I could go & dive but I'd rather add on when I cry
I'm surprised I've made it this far
To go from LEGO's & feeling like a star to scars, guitar & driving a car
I'm so tired of being tired
I don't wanna go through the day but time is slipping away
[Chorus]
Sometimes I don't even want to be me
But I still hope I at least get 1 more week
Am I asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?
[Verse 2]
Lifе is tiring but I'm still willing to wake up
17 winters, so many ideas but I'vе attempted mostly none
The passion's still there but how can I be so scared?
Life is unbearable, I'm really full, I'm through
Of my parents thinking I'm not full
Say I have no meat on my bones
I don't even eat meat, then they say I eat nothing
When almost every night, I stuff my face to feel happy
It's sad to think my family doesn't bring me happiness
They've done so much but they don't make me laugh & give me stress
I have to work everyday now even when I'm not at my best
Which is never but I still wish I could rest
I don't want to go on, but I know I'll be okay
It's just these teenage school & work thoughts in my mind
On the other side, I know it shines
But I'd rather hide, & in your mind be put to the side
[Chorus]
Sometimes I don't even want to be me
But I still hope I at least get 1 more week
Am I asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?
[Outro]
Trust me, I suck but I accept it
Happier back then but knew nothing, I guess there's still no difference
Trust me, I know I'll be okay
But my future lies ahead, past dead
18 now, scared of what's ahead
I don't even know how to live my life
I'm the king, this is my kingdom, but it crumbles even if I try
And I could be lying but it doesn't seem any better cause I'm too shy
To get out & feel better, I could go & dive but I'd rather add on when I cry
I'm surprised I've made it this far
To go from LEGO's & feeling like a star to scars, guitar & driving a car
I'm so tired of being tired
I don't wanna go through the day but time is slipping away
[Chorus]
Sometimes I don't even want to be me
But I still hope I at least get 1 more week
Am I asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?
[Verse 2]
Lifе is tiring but I'm still willing to wake up
17 winters, so many ideas but I'vе attempted mostly none
The passion's still there but how can I be so scared?
Life is unbearable, I'm really full, I'm through
Of my parents thinking I'm not full
Say I have no meat on my bones
I don't even eat meat, then they say I eat nothing
When almost every night, I stuff my face to feel happy
It's sad to think my family doesn't bring me happiness
They've done so much but they don't make me laugh & give me stress
I have to work everyday now even when I'm not at my best
Which is never but I still wish I could rest
I don't want to go on, but I know I'll be okay
It's just these teenage school & work thoughts in my mind
On the other side, I know it shines
But I'd rather hide, & in your mind be put to the side
[Chorus]
Sometimes I don't even want to be me
But I still hope I at least get 1 more week
Am I asking for too much?
Maybe at least 1 more second?
[Outro]
Trust me, I suck but I accept it
Happier back then but knew nothing, I guess there's still no difference
Trust me, I know I'll be okay
But my future lies ahead, past dead
18 now, scared of what's ahead