This Side Of Me by R-Mean Lyrics
Verse 1:
They say that tears are God's gift to us, they heal as they flow like holy water
What I feel in my soul is only darker
These emotions run deep, they drilling through my cage
They never spill on my cheeks, they spilling on the page
Why am I still awake, the whole night's gone
Cuz angels can't sleep when devils leave the porch light on
I hear them whisper, staring at me with jealous eyes
They talk filthy
This battlefield left me paralyzed, walk with me
Became an insomniac cuz these fuckers slept on me
I resurrected just cuz they was wishing death on me
My next steps was cursed like there's a hex on me
I can"t right my wrongs, I turned left homie
But it was right turn only
I might burn slowly
And my entire life turned lonely
Dear Lord, I'm tryna learn, coach me
My head is frying
Shhhhh , listen closely
You can hear the devil crying
Hook:
Honestly I done been crying all day
I feel these demons creeping up and they don't play
And I'm just scared of this side of me, Lord
Said I'm just scared of this side of me Lord
So honestly I done been crying all day
I feel these demons creeping up and they don't play
And I'm just scared of this side of me, Lord
You should be scared of this side of me, dawg
Verse 2:
No one knows this stuff
But no one's close enough for me to tell it to
I'm telling you, I spot the hate in the eyes of a jealous dude
Medusa's flirting
Working her magic, got my juices burning
It's working till the hand of God helped me to move the curtain
I see it clearly for now
The window to my wounded soul was blurred by tears
He removed 'em all
Tell me who's at fault
When falling off, crew was gone
Everybody loves a winner but we all lose alone
Homie we driven by war, the love ends
So people with common enemies will become friends
Go against me
I can sense the 7 deadlies
It's envy, feel them jinx me with bad eyes
Making allies surviving this war
But jump ship before it capsize
Ask why they riding no more
It's on
I pray for you no matter what you cats is wishing
Bless your enemy and rob him of his ammunition
Verse 3:
So pray for me the way I'm praying for you
Cuz the devil gets to the best of us, he taking me too
Things he making me do
I've seen the dark side of myself and I hated it
I just hope that I'm making it through
Tried to live right for a while but ended up conforming to the way of the world
Became a slave to these girls, the money, and greed and
Jealous of a man in a position I wanted to be in
Dear Lord, help me fuck up these demons
Can't you tell that I'm standing in hell?
Till my heart and mind are in union like Gabrielle
Till I find the strength in myself I can reach farther
Knowing that the devil lives inside of the weak hearted
Cuz when I came with the cross they crucified me
Came with the torch and they tried to burn me alive B
But why me?
Cuz before I will live imprisoned I will die free
And real eyes realize real lies B
So hate but making foes I won't
Love the people that treat me right, pray for those that don't
Said you can hate but making foes I won't
Love the people that treat me right, pray for those that don't
They say that tears are God's gift to us, they heal as they flow like holy water
What I feel in my soul is only darker
These emotions run deep, they drilling through my cage
They never spill on my cheeks, they spilling on the page
Why am I still awake, the whole night's gone
Cuz angels can't sleep when devils leave the porch light on
I hear them whisper, staring at me with jealous eyes
They talk filthy
This battlefield left me paralyzed, walk with me
Became an insomniac cuz these fuckers slept on me
I resurrected just cuz they was wishing death on me
My next steps was cursed like there's a hex on me
I can"t right my wrongs, I turned left homie
But it was right turn only
I might burn slowly
And my entire life turned lonely
Dear Lord, I'm tryna learn, coach me
My head is frying
Shhhhh , listen closely
You can hear the devil crying
Hook:
Honestly I done been crying all day
I feel these demons creeping up and they don't play
And I'm just scared of this side of me, Lord
Said I'm just scared of this side of me Lord
So honestly I done been crying all day
I feel these demons creeping up and they don't play
And I'm just scared of this side of me, Lord
You should be scared of this side of me, dawg
Verse 2:
No one knows this stuff
But no one's close enough for me to tell it to
I'm telling you, I spot the hate in the eyes of a jealous dude
Medusa's flirting
Working her magic, got my juices burning
It's working till the hand of God helped me to move the curtain
I see it clearly for now
The window to my wounded soul was blurred by tears
He removed 'em all
Tell me who's at fault
When falling off, crew was gone
Everybody loves a winner but we all lose alone
Homie we driven by war, the love ends
So people with common enemies will become friends
Go against me
I can sense the 7 deadlies
It's envy, feel them jinx me with bad eyes
Making allies surviving this war
But jump ship before it capsize
Ask why they riding no more
It's on
I pray for you no matter what you cats is wishing
Bless your enemy and rob him of his ammunition
Verse 3:
So pray for me the way I'm praying for you
Cuz the devil gets to the best of us, he taking me too
Things he making me do
I've seen the dark side of myself and I hated it
I just hope that I'm making it through
Tried to live right for a while but ended up conforming to the way of the world
Became a slave to these girls, the money, and greed and
Jealous of a man in a position I wanted to be in
Dear Lord, help me fuck up these demons
Can't you tell that I'm standing in hell?
Till my heart and mind are in union like Gabrielle
Till I find the strength in myself I can reach farther
Knowing that the devil lives inside of the weak hearted
Cuz when I came with the cross they crucified me
Came with the torch and they tried to burn me alive B
But why me?
Cuz before I will live imprisoned I will die free
And real eyes realize real lies B
So hate but making foes I won't
Love the people that treat me right, pray for those that don't
Said you can hate but making foes I won't
Love the people that treat me right, pray for those that don't