Fearful moral inventory by Prince Zuko Lyrics

I can say what I want, but I don't wanna speak
No, I don't wanna talk, no I don't wanna rhyme
No, I don't have a plan, only thoughts and intentions
A piece of a message, a beat like a vegetable
Eat when its edible, sleep when acceptable
See the incredible feats of our time
But I just can't help that I read and rewind
And I keep what is mine in a box in my mind
With a lock and a key in a rock on the beach
Near a dock on the sea, with a lighthouse
Only shines in the day when it's bright out
When it finds what it needs then it's lights out
But I can't see the beam when it's nice out
And the light never shines on a night owl
If you ask me to see what I write down
No I don't wanna talk to you right now

Why does life seem like such an abstraction?
I feel like the universe is woven in fabric
And I can't function on my own, I'm just part of a whole
There's no silver without gold