Crush by Pissragjones Lyrics
[Intro singing]
I ain't gonna live thru the winter
Idongivafuck bout self intrest
Simply a satanic sinner
Uwu when I fucking whimper
I fucking lonely and depressed
Gonna die cus all stress
All my feelings get compressed
Pastor said we all was blessed
I'mma fucking centerpiece
Of what all these bitches wanna be
I'd fucking prostitue for free
But I hate seeing my own body
[Verse 1]
Ya
It's days like this
When I wanna fucking kill myself
Eyes of the beast
Everything around overwhelmes
I swear I'm losing my mind
Cus there ain't no lights when I shine
Tell everyone I'm alright
Cus I built this shrine for myself
And yall wanna crush me
See it when you call me
Fucking faggot you foes
Even to this day, things I can't show
Life lived unknown
Put it on yall's nose
Former friends look like pinnochio
Can't escape from the show
If you're the main event
Can't hide in the shadows
If you can't cast them
Even if you took off all my limbs
I'd still scream and shout till I was out of wind
I'mma kill myself for u ever get the chance
That's depression talkin
But it left it in my hands
We do the same song and dance
Atleast once a week
[Refrain]
I'm just a girl
It's me against the world
Crying as I write this song
I'm just tryna keep my head stuck strong
[Verse 2]
Came from the bottom
In the belly of the beast
Fucking hate my body
Don't think I'll ever make peace
Wanna start up on HRT
But I don't got that kinda fucking money
Born in the shadows
But inside of them I burned
Looking inside myself
There's a whole lot that I learned
Gender reconfirmed
Fuck, hating myself
For shit that isn't my fault
I'm on the attack
But I'm the one commiting assault
Cry myself to sleep
Least every other night
I hate this city
Barely seen the moonlight
Never got a hug
But I think that's alright
Always tell myself it finna be alright
But I don't think this shit gon work out fine
Nearly kill myself when I see that light
I hate my fucking life
I'll just cross out all these lines
Cus I'm scared of what they'll say
What they'll think
These kids be transphobic
I'm trans but they don't know it
This isn't no phase
Ain't finna just outgrow it
Kill myself, next life, pray I get it right
Put a bullet in my head
Just to sleep without a bed
I ain't even layed to rest
But my life just ain't worth livin
And i been runnin outta
Motherfuckin reasons to live
I ain't gonna live thru the winter
Idongivafuck bout self intrest
Simply a satanic sinner
Uwu when I fucking whimper
I fucking lonely and depressed
Gonna die cus all stress
All my feelings get compressed
Pastor said we all was blessed
I'mma fucking centerpiece
Of what all these bitches wanna be
I'd fucking prostitue for free
But I hate seeing my own body
[Verse 1]
Ya
It's days like this
When I wanna fucking kill myself
Eyes of the beast
Everything around overwhelmes
I swear I'm losing my mind
Cus there ain't no lights when I shine
Tell everyone I'm alright
Cus I built this shrine for myself
And yall wanna crush me
See it when you call me
Fucking faggot you foes
Even to this day, things I can't show
Life lived unknown
Put it on yall's nose
Former friends look like pinnochio
Can't escape from the show
If you're the main event
Can't hide in the shadows
If you can't cast them
Even if you took off all my limbs
I'd still scream and shout till I was out of wind
I'mma kill myself for u ever get the chance
That's depression talkin
But it left it in my hands
We do the same song and dance
Atleast once a week
[Refrain]
I'm just a girl
It's me against the world
Crying as I write this song
I'm just tryna keep my head stuck strong
[Verse 2]
Came from the bottom
In the belly of the beast
Fucking hate my body
Don't think I'll ever make peace
Wanna start up on HRT
But I don't got that kinda fucking money
Born in the shadows
But inside of them I burned
Looking inside myself
There's a whole lot that I learned
Gender reconfirmed
Fuck, hating myself
For shit that isn't my fault
I'm on the attack
But I'm the one commiting assault
Cry myself to sleep
Least every other night
I hate this city
Barely seen the moonlight
Never got a hug
But I think that's alright
Always tell myself it finna be alright
But I don't think this shit gon work out fine
Nearly kill myself when I see that light
I hate my fucking life
I'll just cross out all these lines
Cus I'm scared of what they'll say
What they'll think
These kids be transphobic
I'm trans but they don't know it
This isn't no phase
Ain't finna just outgrow it
Kill myself, next life, pray I get it right
Put a bullet in my head
Just to sleep without a bed
I ain't even layed to rest
But my life just ain't worth livin
And i been runnin outta
Motherfuckin reasons to live