Not the Man by Peter Hammill Lyrics

There are so many questions
There are so many doubts –
This is auto suggestion
Your spirit is giving out
If I offered my reasons
Would you give me a break?
Now it's all open season
No sense of give and take

You see I'm not the man I was...

But if I'm not the man
That you took me to be
Do I fade from your dreams
Disappear from your memory?
Look at me:
If I'm not the man I was
Then who was he?

There can be no returning
To the scene of the crime...
For perfection you're yearning –
Some romance, some foreign clime!
Is the memory explicit
Under strict rule of thumb?
It was always implicit
This character I've become
But if I'm not the man
That you took me to be
Do I fade from your dreams
Disappear from your memory?
I remember it well
I can guess what went wrong...
You believed all those words
In the popular songs...
But, if I'm not the man
That you took me to be
Did I walk in your dreams?
I've no idea who that person could be

Look at me:
If I'm not the man I was, then who is he?