Us by Paxton Rutherford Lyrics

I'm a rebel in my own toxicity
Growing up didn’t have to end up so shitty
Always was relying on a bad society
Trying to get by without a mirror i couldn't see
Speaking out about what happened last tuesday
Swimming in a pools of tears i call it lemonade
Goin to sleep at night i never was so afraid
Of what was gonna happen to me after the hate

I had a plan to put an end to the madness
I couldn't stand the way they treated me after this
I didn’t ask for this
I never really asked for this
And it was full of shit
I didn't ask for
I had a plan to put a stop to us

Soaking in the pain i couldn't find the ending
I should have some help it ended up depressing
Giving me some methods that i should be practicing
They wouldn't fucking work so i just cried myself to sleep
There's a devil on my shoulder telling me i don't belong here
Left alone with just a manic mindset was so damn unclear