She Was by Orpha Lyrics

How could I know that it was not forever?
How should’ve I acted devoid of passion?
I didn’t know that it had all gone
I didn’t want to fuck it all up

She was a devastating thunderstorm
And the calmest sea I’d ever seen
Our days were furious like a giant swarm;
My days just died in sins
She was a painful injury
And the sweetest rum I’d ever tasted
Our joy was full of miseries
My joy had been already wasted

She was, she was
A dying rose in a desert
That I had created around her tiny
Precious spirit
I was, I was
A pile of lifeless ashes
That could not feel her tiny
Precious spirit
How could I know that it was not forever?
How should’ve I acted devoid of passion?
I didn’t know that it had all gone
I didn’t want to fuck it all up

She was, she was
The cause of my insanity
The star shining for a lonely sailor
On winter nights
I was, I was
That lonely drunk sailor
Who could not save the heat
On winter nights

I said "forgive me"
She said "ok, honey"
Here we go again
"No"