I Wish I Was Honest by Northernmost Lyrics

I can't tell
But tonight must feel like summer
Because I feel like myself

But your eyes say you'll be covered
When the snow's all gone away
And the skies have lost their gray

Thin arms that slip into my veins
You're the only drug I feel these days
I have no choice it's easier to chase the pain
Than lose myself to apathy

I don't know why I say the things I do
The things you're used to and they don't phase you
They don't make you want me anymore
Or keep you begging up at night like I still do

Throw a brick in the mirror
So you don't have to look inside
Pretend you've disappeared between a smile
And half glazed eyes
Button up, chin up- six more months
Then turn your back and walk away
Like you never looked back once
Thin arms that slip into my veins
You're the only drug I feel these days
I have no choice it's easier to chase the pain
Than lose myself to apathy

Regardless of our past
I'm glad you're moving up and on
And I'm sorry I can't be the one
To make your heart my home
Our history just fucks with me
Our history makes me believe in ghosts you left behind