Hell to Pay by Mourn (UK) Lyrics

Is this all that you have to give?
I’ve been scratching my skin down to the bone
And waiting for time to pass
Just to see if I have a purpose
Time ticks slowly away
And you’re not giving it up
Or giving a fuck about us now

It’s almost close enough to touch
But now I have it I don’t think that I want it
I’ll only suffer

So give me one good god damn reason
Why I shouldn’t just give up
I’m so sick of holding onto this
It’s never enough
Is this the hell that I have to pay?
I know I’ve only got myself to blame
Is this the hell that I have to pay?
Am I the only one who’s feeling this way?
It’s just the hell that I have to pay
It’s almost close enough to to touch
But now I have it I don’t think that I want it
I’ll suffer
I’ll only suffer

Now I start to feel you slowly slipping away
And every time that our eyes lock
I feel nothing but shame
Is this the hell that I have to pay?
Am I the only one who’s feeling this way?
Is this the hell that I have to pay?
Now it feels like I’m the only man
Who’s got himself to blame
But that’s the hell that I have to pay