I Wouldnt Miss Me Either by Mnisam Lyrics

[Verse 1 - Mnisam]
The sky is red
Just like my tears
Can't make my bed
Devoured in fears
This is the last time I cry
Leave, or watch me as I die
Screaming for revival
The years that passed
Has made me ten times more suicidal
I'm just better at hiding it
Or maybe I'm crazy, who am I without it?
"Lazy" should be my name
Procrastination is what fuels my shame
"Depression" more like character assassination
I'm not even really sure who I am anymore
I'm at the point where I'm also doubting who I was before
Merely searching for hope
Sincerely tearing me apart
Questioning my purpose here
Take apart my heart
I need a fresh start
Make my life a work of art
Take me off the charts
I think I'll have to depart
[Chorus - Mnisam]
Nobody will search for me
I'm deviant
I wouldn't miss me either

[Verse 2 - Mnisam]
Moving forward steadfast
Let go of the past
Will I make it last?
Truth is I am classed as an outcast
Hypocrites outlast, not a fan of that, ah
I didn't sign up for this
Leaves me clawed up
With a slit up and bruised wrist
I resist to exist
Wish to be dismissed
Start to drift
I am going away
Shape a trail for the ones that are next to come
I'll tell you where I'm from
That it's possible to overcome, ah
Our thoughts are what's killing us
So take a step off the highway
Going too fast will burn you out
Slow down
I believe in you
We can make it through
[Chorus]
Nobody will search for me
I'm deviant
I wouldn't miss me either