Quicksand by Melly Jade Lyrics

Ah what is this?
I've fallen into quicksand...
These memories they haunt me still
Make me the monster that I am!
Oh how to love?
Coz I never learnt how!
You wanna give me affection?
But I don't need it now
Where my heart on my sleeve
I never was able to conceal my true feelings
And what you see with me is really what you get
No, I don't edit my words before I speak them
Yea guess what? I'm always right!!
You will never stop my critical thinking
Yea guess what? I'm never wrong!!
Follow my gut feeling and follow my instinct
I'll be watching you when you're watching me, I'll play you at your own game
And disarm you without you even knowing
Coz you see me as a nobody, but I'm really good at being a nobody
But only until I grab your attention!
I'm freezing like the Arctic, on fire like the inferno
Always blowing hot and always blowing cold
And its not surprise then I can't handle my emotions
Everything I am is written down if you wanna find the real person!!
Ah what is this?...
When I'm sad I'll just take myself off
Out of the equation, you don't even know what I'm crying for!!
But I'm so angry, I'm distressed, I'm ruined, I'm destroyed, I don't trust anyone now
And it will be this way forever!
So I switch my feelings on and off
Coz I don't want to feel anymore
I'll hold you at arms length, so keep your distance coz I never let anything or
Anyone get close
You want my attention?
But I just wanna be alone
Don't suffocate me or I'm out I'll fking run!
You already know I'm detached, I'm unreachable
To get to the centre, the core of me well... that's gonna take a miracle!
I guess this is my lot in life
But should I be grateful for that?
I faced the devil every night
And still dream about him even now!!
Of course, for sure you don't understand
We're not the same!! funny tho you understand that