Birthday by Mcaiiah Lyrics

They say you can't be sad on your birthday
Then tell me why I feel this way
Getting dressed for the party at eight
I'd rather stay at home, but I'll cooperate
I can't live this way
Got my best fake smile on display
Just trying to have one good day
And forget about all your toxic ways
I know you meant no harm
But harm is what you gave
I can't live this way
When will my heart un-break

Tell me it won't last forever
Trouble don't last always
So when will I forget if I already forgave
You cut me down to the core
But I'm not mad anymore
I'm trying to move on past the pain
But will it ever be the same
Memories shared across dinner plates
Stories of our fondest days
I hold my breath 'til the moment fades
'Cause I remember things a different way
I can't live this way
Take a bathroom break just to check my face
Rinse my eyes, wash the red away
Have you been crying, no I'm okay
Same ol' lie, a different day
Kisses and hugs, pictures of us
I feel a rush, it's all too much
I don't want to live this way

Tell me it won't last forever
Trouble don't last always
So when will I forget if I already forgave
You cut me down to the core
But I'm not mad anymore
I'm trying to move on past the pain
But will it ever be the same

All I want to do is turn the page
Wish I could forget, wish I could erase
But when I rip off the bandaid
I realize I'm still bleeding
All I want to do is turn the page
I can't even look you in the face
'Cause when I rip off the bandaid
I realize I'm still bleeding
Tell me it won't last forever
Trouble don't last always
So when will I forget if I already forgave

Tell me it won't last forever
Trouble don't last always
So when will I forget if I already forgave
You cut me down to the core
But I'm not mad, I'm not mad anymore
I'm ready to move on past the pain
But it'll never be the same