Sorry by McPadden Music Lyrics
I'm sorry that I never got to tell you this before
But there's nothing in my life that I value anymore
I gotta tell you this cuz it's now or never
It's late at night right now I'm wide awake
There's things on my mind and driving me insane
It's been like this night and day and until now I could hide it away
I lied to your face when I told you my life was okay
But the truth is my life's a disgrace
You think I'm overacting, well I'm happy for you
Cuz you don't understand what I've been battling, do you?
You don't even know what's been happening, do you?
I've been unhappy, for a very, very long time, maybe it's me
Or maybe fake friends and back stabbing assholes
Who never gave a damn about the hassle they caused me
Or the trauma they've force on me
You thought my life was awesome cuz I wore this smile was all to see
Yeah cry, act as if you have remorse for me
As if you ever gave a damn while I'm alive and breathing
I don't doubt you'll cry for me cuz now I'm leaving
As if my death was unexpected and my life has now prematurely ended
Yeah, tell the whole world how I seemed like a happy guy
Cuz you're too blind to ever see all the crap behind this smile
Happy go lucky you once called me
Look how happy I am, on the edge of life
My eyes blinded with tears, I can barely write
And though I'm scared tonight for what I'm about to do
But happy never to return to this dreadful life
I'm already dead inside, it's not a temporary phase
Believe me when I say that I've been feeling this way for days
Months, years in fact
So don't give me that crap about putting on a cheery act
That there's a light at the end of the tunnel or telling me to stay positive
Cuz you don't understand what the main problem is
I've been struggling to remain top of this
But now, the answer is painfully obvious
I didn't wanna go and do this but you drove me to this
Now everybody can pretend they're going to miss me
You could never read the pain in my eyes, could you!
Never even bothered to take the time, would you!
Cuz my life is an unread story you never bothered to pick up and try
But why should you!
When my existence will fall into abyss this Christmas
When you're writing your gift list and listening to a happy song
I over think and over stress, watching life as it passes slowly by
I don't know why others are good at success
God only knows I try, now everyday
There's no more light, just black and gray
I feel my hope and decline as it descends away
But I won't go and hide, I haven't ran away
I'm just gonna close my eyes and wait for life to pass away
So, goodbye. Oh yeah, and I'm sorry...
But there's nothing in my life that I value anymore
I gotta tell you this cuz it's now or never
It's late at night right now I'm wide awake
There's things on my mind and driving me insane
It's been like this night and day and until now I could hide it away
I lied to your face when I told you my life was okay
But the truth is my life's a disgrace
You think I'm overacting, well I'm happy for you
Cuz you don't understand what I've been battling, do you?
You don't even know what's been happening, do you?
I've been unhappy, for a very, very long time, maybe it's me
Or maybe fake friends and back stabbing assholes
Who never gave a damn about the hassle they caused me
Or the trauma they've force on me
You thought my life was awesome cuz I wore this smile was all to see
Yeah cry, act as if you have remorse for me
As if you ever gave a damn while I'm alive and breathing
I don't doubt you'll cry for me cuz now I'm leaving
As if my death was unexpected and my life has now prematurely ended
Yeah, tell the whole world how I seemed like a happy guy
Cuz you're too blind to ever see all the crap behind this smile
Happy go lucky you once called me
Look how happy I am, on the edge of life
My eyes blinded with tears, I can barely write
And though I'm scared tonight for what I'm about to do
But happy never to return to this dreadful life
I'm already dead inside, it's not a temporary phase
Believe me when I say that I've been feeling this way for days
Months, years in fact
So don't give me that crap about putting on a cheery act
That there's a light at the end of the tunnel or telling me to stay positive
Cuz you don't understand what the main problem is
I've been struggling to remain top of this
But now, the answer is painfully obvious
I didn't wanna go and do this but you drove me to this
Now everybody can pretend they're going to miss me
You could never read the pain in my eyes, could you!
Never even bothered to take the time, would you!
Cuz my life is an unread story you never bothered to pick up and try
But why should you!
When my existence will fall into abyss this Christmas
When you're writing your gift list and listening to a happy song
I over think and over stress, watching life as it passes slowly by
I don't know why others are good at success
God only knows I try, now everyday
There's no more light, just black and gray
I feel my hope and decline as it descends away
But I won't go and hide, I haven't ran away
I'm just gonna close my eyes and wait for life to pass away
So, goodbye. Oh yeah, and I'm sorry...