Backwards by Matthew Fredrick (Matthias) Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Backwards, forwards, I'm exploring the borders
Of everything I want, everything I need
Lethal doses of my own emotions
Seep into my dreams and paralyze me

[Pre-Chorus 1]
I pick myself up off the ground
I keep tellin' myself, "no, I'm not backing down"
I keep tellin' myself, "best is still yet to come"
I keep tellin' myself, "it's darkest before the dawn"

[Chorus]
I'm going backwards and yet I'm made to believe
I'm moving forwards and I'm chasing my dreams
But I'll be just who I wanna be
Without you controlling, controlling me

[Verse 2]
Toxic thoughts can make me easily drop this
But I won't shift my step so there's nothing to regret
I'm broken and coping with this broken hopeing
I kept blaming them, when the doubt came from within
[Pre-Chorus 2]
No more ugly white lies that I keep tellin' myself
This time I'm gonna try, I'm not just tellin' myself
"Best is still yet to come," I keep tellin' myself
It's darkest before the dawn

[Chorus]
I'm going backwards and yet I'm made to believe
I'm moving forwards and I'm chasing my dreams
But I'll be just who I wanna be
Without you controlling, controlling me

[Outro]
I will be seen and be heard
And they will hang on my every word
I will break free from the chains
And beat anything you throw in my way

I will be seen and be heard
And they will hang on my every word
I will break free from the chains
And beat anything you throw in my way