Xo by Markeise Lyrics
The lengths I’ve gone to find myself are unbelievable
Real problems
Live before you die
Feeling detached from the world living with BPD
Deranging psychotic thrills like we were meant to be
Possibly
Aware this can’t be make believe
I put a smile on for Mom and try to fake the grief so she don’t see degrees of the adventure I set out on when I chalked it up inside my head that Tuesday evening
Still I can’t believe the wild night that I had
Daydreams in disbelief reflect the loneliness beneath
Xo for now I will be back again
It won’t be long and never the same my friend
Keep it together when it’s happening
Holding my tongue while fighting the pain I’m in
It’s crazy when you go from being so close to somebody to so far apart
It’s never long before I’m back again
Sittin’ back with an L hotboxin’ room 110
Black on black
Playing circles like Malcolm’s listening but still I pay no attention ‘cause greater things are planned
Man
What a mess I got myself into
Livin’ fast
Rollin’ the dice
Swear I’m in love with you like metal guides the youth
I’m appalled I even made it through
Didn’t think I’d survive my own pursuit
Screwed
I’ve lost myself I don’t know who I am
Everything’s backwards and I’m really not sure what direction to turn
So learn from my dark and twisted horror story and when I’m gone spread my music globally
Xo for now I will be back again
It won’t be long and never the same my friend
Keep it together when it’s happening
Holding my tongue while fighting the pain I’m in
Real problems
Live before you die
Feeling detached from the world living with BPD
Deranging psychotic thrills like we were meant to be
Possibly
Aware this can’t be make believe
I put a smile on for Mom and try to fake the grief so she don’t see degrees of the adventure I set out on when I chalked it up inside my head that Tuesday evening
Still I can’t believe the wild night that I had
Daydreams in disbelief reflect the loneliness beneath
Xo for now I will be back again
It won’t be long and never the same my friend
Keep it together when it’s happening
Holding my tongue while fighting the pain I’m in
It’s crazy when you go from being so close to somebody to so far apart
It’s never long before I’m back again
Sittin’ back with an L hotboxin’ room 110
Black on black
Playing circles like Malcolm’s listening but still I pay no attention ‘cause greater things are planned
Man
What a mess I got myself into
Livin’ fast
Rollin’ the dice
Swear I’m in love with you like metal guides the youth
I’m appalled I even made it through
Didn’t think I’d survive my own pursuit
Screwed
I’ve lost myself I don’t know who I am
Everything’s backwards and I’m really not sure what direction to turn
So learn from my dark and twisted horror story and when I’m gone spread my music globally
Xo for now I will be back again
It won’t be long and never the same my friend
Keep it together when it’s happening
Holding my tongue while fighting the pain I’m in